Hi everyone, blessings! I happen to have a big crush. It all started somewhat recent. An event like this is usually something to be a happy about. Unfortunately, I'm very conflicted, and don't know what to do. So I would like to seek council here if possible, to see what you all think. First things first, I'm male, 28 years old. I practically grew up in church, and never left, always been here trying to stay as faithful to God as possible. I recently moved to a new church, which is just an amazing place. I moved because God actually gave me word to move from my old church. I prayed for Him to guide me to a new place, and He definitely did. I'm happy and blessed where I am now. And it was here in this new place that I met a girl. At first it was just like any other regular "nice to meet you" kind of thing. Because I have been given the privilege to serve in the music ministry for another location that my new church recently opened, focused on college students, I'm usually not around in the main church. However, once a given semester ends, I go back to attending the main church. This summer, as I went back there, I began to reconnect with all the young adults that I hadn't seen in a while. I got to spend more time with them, share with them in fellowship, so it's been pretty great. During this time, I got to also reconnect with this girl that I had previously met. I'm not entirely sure how it all happened, it felt very natural and organic on how we connected. I came to know that many of her struggles were very similar to mine in a way. She's been through so much, but God has sustained and guided her through it all. I began to see how amazing she was. How love literally poured out of her, and how God uses her in such amazing ways. She has this big heart, such kindness and sweetness. Before I knew it, I was totally and utterly attracted to her. She's beautiful. So you might think, this is great, I don't see any problem at all. Of course, here's the big but. Sigh...shes only 18, going to 19. So I, of course, start to ask myself the obvious question: What in the world am I thinking?? The gap is pretty substantial. Almost 10 years!! I'll be honest, I'm very very conflicted. On one side, I want to pursue her. I feel like we match up very well, and it's something that I wasn't even looking for, it was almost as if it was brought to me. Yes, definitely not what I originally expected or wanted. I wanted somebody older, closer to my age. On the other hand, there's the ethics. Is it ethical for me to pursue her? would we be accepted by my church? I know for a fact that my family will go ballistic if they were to find out I'm dating an 18 year old. Even when I say it, sounds ridiculous...is this something that I'm just gonna have to forget about and put it behind me? ...could I be making the mistake of a life time by letting her go?...what does this say about me, liking someone so young?...
So you see my brothers and sisters, this is my predicament, and it's literally keeping me up at night. Someone, please help, shed some light on this complicated mess
Or at least pray for me, for guidance, for me to be able to make the right decision here.
Note: I also posted this in the singles only forum. I think I should have posted this here instead lol that way more people can see it and respond to it, so my apologies.
So you see my brothers and sisters, this is my predicament, and it's literally keeping me up at night. Someone, please help, shed some light on this complicated mess
Or at least pray for me, for guidance, for me to be able to make the right decision here.Note: I also posted this in the singles only forum. I think I should have posted this here instead lol that way more people can see it and respond to it, so my apologies.
