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The General Mental Health Forum is now a Read Only Forum. As we had two large areas making it difficult for many to find, we decided to combine the Mental Health & the Recovery sections of the forum into Mental Health & Recovery as a whole. Physical Health still remains as it's own area within the entire Recovery area.
If you are having struggles, need support in a particular area that you aren't finding a specific recovery area forum, you may find the General Struggles forum a great place to post. Any any that is related to emotions, self-esteem, insomnia, anger, relationship dynamics due to mental health and recovery and other issues that don't fit better in another forum would be examples of topics that might go there.
If you have spiritual issues related to a mental health and recovery issue, please use the Recovery Related Spiritual Advice forum. This forum is designed to be like Christian Advice, only for recovery type of issues. Recovery being like a family in many ways, allows us to support one another together. May you be blessed today and each day.
Kristen.NewCreation and FreeinChrist
I feel like a fraud for being here sometimes. I'm not overweight, but I'm not really skinny (at least I don't think so) and I do eat. But then I get caught up inside my head and I know that it goes a lot deeper than just a size. And I really appreciated your sig, it's how I've always felt.
What's wrong dear?
Hellloooo...already a new thread
Kerin, Im alright...struggling ATM. Yesterday before church I was getting ready and putting my clothes on whilst looking in the mirror, bad thing to do!! Anyways....I couldnt handle it, I couldnt take looking at myself I started to cry and DH walked in and asked what was wrong...and I told him...."I have the biggest hips ever"....he was so shocked...I think it hit him that it really is a ##/# thing and not something I only have a problem with when food is in front of me....he was being real supportive yesterday...but since yestterday Ive already decided that I have to lose more weight...I have to.....I dont feel thin enough either...and sometimes I get crazy ideas in my head that my DH doesnt think I have an ED either b/c I dont look thin enough....I KNOW he doesnt...but that thought enters my mind. UGH
Its such a struggle...and what I am eating its very healthy and low calorie. Everything is so triggering today....even the slightest look in the mirror, the way my body sounds walking on the floor...and the thump of it when I run...I cant handle it....I just want to be thinner than ever before....
I shouldn't be here posting in this thread - and really should go away. There used to be other people here who struggle with SI rather than ED - but not anymore....and this is in the ED forum- so I am just a gatecrasher.
I really should go away.
sorry .. i wasn't having a great night... I went and retreived my blades from where I had hidden them from myself.......which I guess wasn't a particularly great plan. I know i'm being really stupid, but I really miss SI, i think it would make me feel in control...
Sorry :-( that was a long moan :-(
for everyone
Sabrina
xxxx
(Yes, I do have a hammy April - She is good thanks - how is Molly?)
Hey Kerin. How are you?It's never enough though Sabrina that's the problem, right? Where do we stop once we get started losing the weight we think we need to lose? You'll just be chasing after something you'll never get to and it's just so dangerous! We might never get to the place where we're happy with our weights, but we do have to get to where we decide if we're going to accept it and be healthy. THAT'S easier said than done, I know!! I think it helps to find something that makes you want to get better more than wanting to continue on the same path with the ED. For me, it was my kids. They were the turning point for me. I didn't want to have them see mommy struggling with not eating and constantly dieting and not being a good example (especially since they're girls!). Do you have something to keep you focused on getting better? Lots of hugs and prayers!!!!