Hi there,
So yes, a word of hope here: it is possible to tame your psychosis - in a manner of speaking.
Initially, schizophrenia (for example) can be very wild and unchecked, but with proper self-care (meditation, diet, medication - to an extent - exercise), you can reach a point, where you feel very "self-satisfied" with it (the condition). If you can achieve that, that is great, but you are sort of sitting tight, hoping that it doesn't get triggered again - this is a place of security, but it is a minimal place (of security).
If you remember the words in Revelation "blessed are those who died in the Lord from now on, for their works shall follow after them", you will realise that it is possible, to go beyond a place of mere security to quietness and confidence (which is strength) - by taking control of the undercurrent you were struggling with, it is possible to reach a point where your condition is "tamed" ("tamed" meaning predictable, sedate and consequent only in the sense that God intended it). The price of reaching this point, is to surrender - not just initially, but completely -, it becomes a state that you trust even without thinking about it, that it will follow through, only where it is needed, that is, to the limit God intended for it to take effect, that it help you and those with you). You need to pray about it, you need to defer the decision to God and you need to expect that it will bow to the Name of Jesus.
The benefits of taking total command of your condition are manifold: a peace, an understanding, a grace - purity of intent, in my case, the notion that no emotional reaction happens to a man, but that God be much more consistently praised. Its like saying the condition, in me, is a friend to God, as I am a friend (of God). It's movements are a strength, just as my other faculties are a strength - I am able to lift myself up in the Lord, and praise Him: both for what the condition does, but also the limit that it reaches, which it cannot reach beyond - but by God. The words of your heart start to follow, start to bubble up, start to pour forth as living waters, but unlike the living waters of others (of normal people) they well up with love and suffering mixed together, in beautiful harmony - harmony that spills over into praises for God, in everything He does -- even the difficult stuff.
The point is, that your mental condition (be it schizophrenia, or any other condition in principle) can become something very natural, something you trust, something you perfect!
Let God hold you, let God show you.
So yes, a word of hope here: it is possible to tame your psychosis - in a manner of speaking.
Initially, schizophrenia (for example) can be very wild and unchecked, but with proper self-care (meditation, diet, medication - to an extent - exercise), you can reach a point, where you feel very "self-satisfied" with it (the condition). If you can achieve that, that is great, but you are sort of sitting tight, hoping that it doesn't get triggered again - this is a place of security, but it is a minimal place (of security).
If you remember the words in Revelation "blessed are those who died in the Lord from now on, for their works shall follow after them", you will realise that it is possible, to go beyond a place of mere security to quietness and confidence (which is strength) - by taking control of the undercurrent you were struggling with, it is possible to reach a point where your condition is "tamed" ("tamed" meaning predictable, sedate and consequent only in the sense that God intended it). The price of reaching this point, is to surrender - not just initially, but completely -, it becomes a state that you trust even without thinking about it, that it will follow through, only where it is needed, that is, to the limit God intended for it to take effect, that it help you and those with you). You need to pray about it, you need to defer the decision to God and you need to expect that it will bow to the Name of Jesus.
The benefits of taking total command of your condition are manifold: a peace, an understanding, a grace - purity of intent, in my case, the notion that no emotional reaction happens to a man, but that God be much more consistently praised. Its like saying the condition, in me, is a friend to God, as I am a friend (of God). It's movements are a strength, just as my other faculties are a strength - I am able to lift myself up in the Lord, and praise Him: both for what the condition does, but also the limit that it reaches, which it cannot reach beyond - but by God. The words of your heart start to follow, start to bubble up, start to pour forth as living waters, but unlike the living waters of others (of normal people) they well up with love and suffering mixed together, in beautiful harmony - harmony that spills over into praises for God, in everything He does -- even the difficult stuff.
The point is, that your mental condition (be it schizophrenia, or any other condition in principle) can become something very natural, something you trust, something you perfect!
Let God hold you, let God show you.
