My fiance and I are just 2 months shy of our 3 years anniversary. We got engaged the first weekend of June, and we will be getting married in November. We have always been very open with each other, especially about any struggles we have. Around a year and a half ago though, he told me that he had watched inappropriate content during his teen years. I had also told him that as a teen I read erotic material, and we both felt very relieved and happy that we understood each other and that all of our skeletons were out of the closet. However, even though we talked about it and he assured me that God delivered him of that sin before he met me, I felt devastated. I trust him explicitly- he is my best friend. I prayed about it and felt like I had gotten over it. However, every couple months, my self esteem drops because I begin comparing myself to whatever I imagine he saw. I struggle with my weight, and that is evident. I know he loves me anyways, and he spends more time with me than with his parents or his friends. I have talked with him about my struggles a few times, but he is always crestfallen afterwards. He feels like he cheated on me before he even met me, and I hate making him feel guilty like that. Within a couple days and with some prayer, I am back to my normal self and it doesn't bother me. A couple months will pass, and then I struggle with my self esteem again. It has not affected our relationship though, and no one has ever made me feel this happy or make me want to further my relationship with God more than he has.
So my question is: What can I do? I love him and trust him, and he loves and trusts me. This is just an occasional problem that I have, and one that I believe as a human being I may always have. I don't want to upset him by talking about it with him, and it always passes within two days.
Thank you,
A Sensitive Sister
So my question is: What can I do? I love him and trust him, and he loves and trusts me. This is just an occasional problem that I have, and one that I believe as a human being I may always have. I don't want to upset him by talking about it with him, and it always passes within two days.
Thank you,
A Sensitive Sister