I was diagnosed with PCOS a few years ago. I concieved on my own in August/September of 2008 and suffered a miscarriage early in the pregnancy. I have been unable to concieve again since then. I have been married since March of 2008 and have been trying to concieve for more than 5 years.. We have been slowly losing faith over time through our struggles. I have stopped going to church, and feel more resentment than love. I don't understand how God can give women babies when he knows they will only be aborted, but cannot give them to women who want nothing more in this life than to be mothers. I've tried to find an explanation for this on my own, and short of feeling like God hates me for some reason. That makes me feel doubt about everything I have ever felt, thought or believed. I just don't want to do anymore.