Stillbirth

[b.a.t]

I just wanted to share my story with all you wonderful people.
In Jan 1991 (Chad) my little boy I was carrying was stillborn. I can still remember it to this day.
I had gone to the hospital because he had not been moving much the night before. They took me straight in for a caesarian. When I come round I had a doctor standing over me telling me that they had not been able to revive my beautiful baby boy. My world fell apart. I blamed myself, then the doctors. I became bulimic and did not want to live. The only thing that kept me going was my 2 year old daughter and God. I knew he would give me the answers the doctors couldn't.
I got told they did not know why he had died it was just one of these things that happen. Does anyone know how much that hurts? Then in 1997 I had a beautiful little girl. While carrying her I developed diabetes she was 4 weeks early and weighed 8lb 9oz. There was my answer, my baby son had died because I had developed diabetes during my pregnancies, and gone to full term. Babies with diabetic mothers neeed to be born early. So after 7 years waiting I got the answers I had been praying for.
My heart goes out to all who have lost a child, It has got to be the most painful thing that could happen to a person or family.
God bless all you wonderful people.. Bev

 

[dcrowther3]

We cannot begin to imagine your loss.
We all love you.
Thank you for your courageous posting.

 

[Nevada77]

Thank you for sharing! I am so sorry for your loss. may God bless you and your family.

 

[ShannonMcCatholic]

I am so sorry for the loss of your little Chad.. thank you for sharing your story here! Perhaps it will help others to remember to keep trusting that God will show Himself.... they just have to hang in there moment to moment, day to day. God bless you!

 

[ladyhawk]

Thankyou for sharing your story and Chad with us.... to you.

 

[day2day]

Thank you b.a.t...... One never knows, what might happen durring a life time. But It's great to know You're never alone. Your post Is a comfort to many other ladies here at C.F. Again thank you for sharing. P.S. I believe it the not knowing thats the hardest. .......Day

 

[bornagain-053184]

my hart goes out to you. god bless you and you'r family..
kiss/hugs

 

[b.a.t]

I just wanted to say thank you to all you lovely people for your kind words. I know how hard it is and how alone you feel when something like this happens. Knowing that there is light at the end of the tunnel can sometimes help. If I can help someone in the same situation I was in then thats my job done.

 

[SavedChild]

I send my deepest condolences. Thanks so much for sharing your story, I can't even imagine.

 

[b.a.t]

Thank you savedchild

 

[Heather172005]

Thank you for sharing! I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby

 

[psalm25]

HUGS and Prayers!

Thanks for sharing!

 

[peacechild4]

I read what you shared Bev.... Thank you.. I know it helps to remember and share with others who care...

Chad... We remember your precious life.. I am so glad your mummy knows Jesus!!

 

[orangee725]

um...

 

[b.a.t]

um...

Can I ask what you mean?

 

[heatherq17]

Thank you for sharing Chad with us! I am so sorry for your loss. I know how it feels my son Conner was stillborn April 29th 2005... Again I am sorry!! Sending ((Hugs)) your way!

 

[b.a.t]

I am so sorry to hear about Conner.
It is very brave of you to share him with us.
It is good to know you are not alone when tradgedy like this strikes. Sometime it can feel like you are the only one who it has happened to..