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I have just felt like I'm spiritually DRAGGING for weeks now. I'm burned out. I'm not only sick of the drive and the super long liturgy and the fact I don't get home until around 3pm from Fresno, but I'm burned out on the politics. Our deacon and his family just rule the roost, so much politics. Very plasticky. Most of you know about the whole reader situation where I've offered but I've felt a cool "you had your chance" vibe. I'm tired of the ethnic stuff, too. I still feel like a visitor and often like we're second class parishioners because we can't sign up our kids for everything and we can't attend so much of this stuff due to the drive.
Spiritually I barely want to pray. I just feel fried and uninspired. I'm sick of talking about icons, about Mt. Athos, burned out on hearing about monasteries/sketes, weary of hearing about fasting (another thing I STINK AT!), and for the first time, I'm just sick of talking about Orthodoxy in general!
I feel like a total dirtbag right now. There are so many people in TAW who are just constantly pumped up, love it, feel this awesome calling, have such a great joy about it, and there are all these newbies in here full of wonder and excitement, we have some awesome folks like Matt and Joseph Hazen working toward priesthood and huge commitments, others pondering living the life of a monastery, others just holy and on fire for Christ, and here I am.....sapped dry of spiritual energy or vigor. I feel terrible about this right now. My wife is off tonight and tomorrow and we COULD go to Church Sunday while my kids are supposed to be altar boys Sunday as well, and yet all I can thinking about is, "ughhh, sigh, I have no desire to go up there...."
Pray for me. I'm just pathetic.
Spiritually I barely want to pray. I just feel fried and uninspired. I'm sick of talking about icons, about Mt. Athos, burned out on hearing about monasteries/sketes, weary of hearing about fasting (another thing I STINK AT!), and for the first time, I'm just sick of talking about Orthodoxy in general!
I feel like a total dirtbag right now. There are so many people in TAW who are just constantly pumped up, love it, feel this awesome calling, have such a great joy about it, and there are all these newbies in here full of wonder and excitement, we have some awesome folks like Matt and Joseph Hazen working toward priesthood and huge commitments, others pondering living the life of a monastery, others just holy and on fire for Christ, and here I am.....sapped dry of spiritual energy or vigor. I feel terrible about this right now. My wife is off tonight and tomorrow and we COULD go to Church Sunday while my kids are supposed to be altar boys Sunday as well, and yet all I can thinking about is, "ughhh, sigh, I have no desire to go up there...."
Pray for me. I'm just pathetic.