*sigh* Jesus died for this?

[Neostarwcc]

So im still spending money like no tomorrow. My banks empty my cards are maxed with no increase, i skipped rent and cable this month. Just... Why? Because I want to play my addiction. Free to play games where you can spend thousands and get nowhere.

I cant stop and I think its time I stopped blaming this on mania. I mean, yes im manic. But ive also had this problem for years. Even games with a set price every month because theres always extra stuff to buy even in those.

Ive had this problem from before I even knew I had bipolar disorder. I think the manic and psychotic mixes didnt really help my situation. Now that im manic its nearly impossible to stop, I dont have control.

Honestly? I dont need a therapist, I need Jesus. Where is he? I cant afford therapy anyway my insurance no longer covers a good therapist or half of my good doctors anymore. Just... Impossible. Please ask Jesus to help, I dont know where else to turn. He cured many things wrong with me including a inappropriate content addiction id never thought would go away. Yet, he wont deal with this? Where is he? Each day that passes is more sins that he had to SUFFER for! This needs to stop. Im going insane, literally!

I said it in the title and ill say it here! *Sigh*! Jesus died for this?

 

[Lost4words]

Jesus can work through others. Thus, getting help would be a prudent idea.

 

[angelsaroundme]

Are you talking about gacha games or multiplayer games like Fortnite?

 

[Jesus is my Superhero]

Fast for two days drinking only water. I guarantee your mind won't be wondering to games and other frivolities into day 2. Observe what your thoughts are and realize that yes, you have control over the thoughts that spend time in your mind. In other words reject the temporary urge to spend money you don't have on being a consumer.
Keep God in the forefront of your mind during the fast, praying often and beseeching Him to accept your attempt at humbling yourself before His authority and that you are determined to put Him first in your life. Good luck on a successful fast.

 

[Neostarwcc]

And... she took off again. Why is it everytime something like this comes up we fight and she takes off? It's been almost 2 hours.

 

[Rescued One]

I read a quote once that helped me:

If you don't feel close to God, guess who moved.

 

[Rescued One]

And... she took off again. Why is it everytime something like this comes up we fight and she takes off? It's been almost 2 hours.

People leave to cool off. Ephesians 4:31.

 

[Herbivore Wolf]

I'll keep you in my prayers, friend. Yes, Christ died for this. I'm young, and I'm not going through what you are. But I'll pray for you, cause I know some people that speak like you post. Maybe read much Scripture, pray like Job and ask Christ why. Look for answers in Scripture... I'm sorry for what you're going through.

 

[Neostarwcc]

People leave to cool off. Ephesians 4:31.

Yeah she came home again a few hours ago. This time she just walked to a grocery store and sat there to cool off. Im glad.

 

[Neostarwcc]

I'll keep you in my prayers, friend. Yes, Christ died for this. I'm young, and I'm not going through what you are. But I'll pray for you, cause I know some people that speak like you post. Maybe read much Scripture, pray like Job and ask Christ why. Look for answers in Scripture... I'm sorry for what you're going through.

Thank you brother!

 

[LoricaLady]

Fast for two days drinking only water. I guarantee your mind won't be wondering to games and other frivolities into day 2. Observe what your thoughts are and realize that yes, you have control over the thoughts that spend time in your mind. In other words reject the temporary urge to spend money you don't have on being a consumer.
Keep God in the forefront of your mind during the fast, praying often and beseeching Him to accept your attempt at humbling yourself before His authority and that you are determined to put Him first in your life. Good luck on a successful fast.

I know that Moses and Messiah fasted for 40 days and 40 nights. But they ain’t us!

Fasting is a form of starvation and it is hard on the adrenals. If the adrenals weaken it seems impossible to ever get them back to their normal state.

Yes fasting can yield wonderful results spiritually. But my personal opinion is that it should only be done by someone who is very healthy. Also, I think a 24 hour water only fast once a week can lead to great results and that nothing more strenuous is required.

 

[Neostarwcc]

I know that Moses and Messiah fasted for 40 days and 40 nights. But they ain’t us!

Fasting is a form of starvation and it is hard on the adrenals. If the adrenals weaken it seems impossible to ever get them back to their normal state.

Yes fasting can yield wonderful results spiritually. But my personal opinion is that it should only be done by someone who is very healthy. Also, I think a 24 hour water only fast once a week can lead to great results and that nothing more strenuous is required.

Idk the last time my wife tried fasting for even one day she puked her guts out. Turns me off from trying.

 

[Herbivore Wolf]

How are you doing today, brother?

 

[Jeffwhosoever]

Fasting in your case could be 24 hours without any internet whatsoever - no games, no Christian Forums, and instead, spend that 24 hours in prayer first to the Lord, then later, read the Scriptures that you feel led to read. Give it a try, then come back and tell us how it worked, and what you learned. Fasting need not only be a matter of not eating. The point is to do without something you normally need, in order to put the Lord first, and in your case, it seems gaming, likely online, is your problem, so disconnect completely for a day and instead spend that time with the Lord and your wife and family.