- Mar 11, 2016
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I've been thinking about this for a while..and then thinking about it again.
My friend is getting married soon and I feel our lives are on 2 different wave lengths,
Mine has gotten better but I feel like its a roller coaster..like it goes up then dips down...well now its dipping..I don't want to talk about it but..because of it.. I told my friend I needed a break and wanted to be alone.
I just wonder if should let it go because its going to happen eventually..and if it does I rather do it now than later...u know?
A part of me is afraid ill miss him but its like ..its going to happen anyway and ill have to cope. Even my other friends our texts have slowed to a crawl...everyone is moving on with their lives and in their lives...and I want to do the same..
I want to move on because its like ...with online friends you can't do anything with them..its not like they're here and they're so busy in their lives that I don't think we could meet... But I'm also afraid because I don't think ill ever meet friends as good as them...
But I just wish they were with me physically so I won't be so lonely.
Idk know what to do. Part of me wants to end the friendships. All of them...because its going no where... We'll never meet up or hang out...and it sucks because I get along so well with them... And all the people I tried to befriend in real life never wanted much to do with me outside of class and I feel like I'm just destined to lead this lonely life..
And if so, I'm not strong enough for it.
But I feel having these amazing friends I can text but never meet is like a carrot being dangled in my face..
I just..idk
My friend is getting married soon and I feel our lives are on 2 different wave lengths,
Mine has gotten better but I feel like its a roller coaster..like it goes up then dips down...well now its dipping..I don't want to talk about it but..because of it.. I told my friend I needed a break and wanted to be alone.
I just wonder if should let it go because its going to happen eventually..and if it does I rather do it now than later...u know?
A part of me is afraid ill miss him but its like ..its going to happen anyway and ill have to cope. Even my other friends our texts have slowed to a crawl...everyone is moving on with their lives and in their lives...and I want to do the same..
I want to move on because its like ...with online friends you can't do anything with them..its not like they're here and they're so busy in their lives that I don't think we could meet... But I'm also afraid because I don't think ill ever meet friends as good as them...
But I just wish they were with me physically so I won't be so lonely.
Idk know what to do. Part of me wants to end the friendships. All of them...because its going no where... We'll never meet up or hang out...and it sucks because I get along so well with them... And all the people I tried to befriend in real life never wanted much to do with me outside of class and I feel like I'm just destined to lead this lonely life..
And if so, I'm not strong enough for it.
But I feel having these amazing friends I can text but never meet is like a carrot being dangled in my face..
I just..idk