- Dec 13, 2015
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For some people with disabilities and deformities it's possible to still function in society. My illness as I have mentioned it before is not one that I believe it is possible to function in society at all.
So what is it God would have me do with my life with a disability that is such?
I am working on my own business because this disease makes me subject to ridicule and mistreatment by employers and coworkers. I have to either stay single forever or marry someone like me or warn everyone I date about my illness. I feel utterly shunned from society and feel like what's the point of trying. Society I'd for normal people. I'm wondering if I should even try to live and function in this society like a normal person or if I should just say whatever and do what I want with mt life since this disease takes the joy out of whatever I do so that I could be homeless and suffering or with a house and car and suffering still. Seems like what good is anything if people can't even stand to be around you and treat you like less than a human being. At least if I had cancer or something people would care. What I have no one even knows about and so I get mocked and bullied.
My liver is messed up so that I give off awful smells of whatever I eat or put on and I do not have the money or compassion from the medical community to receive help.
I am excluded by people from virtually everything. I found a support groups for people like me, but I feel that my life is utterly worthless. I am only 25 and i've had this for 5 years and i've prayed. And I do not intend to end myself and condemn myself to the lake of fire....
If God doesn't cure me what else could he possibly use someone like me for? Everyone I come in contact with ridicules me and my suffering seems to never end. I've went into debt trying to fix myself and losing support of family members.
I feel like there is no point to my suffering. How can God possibly get any glory out of seeing me be ridiculed daily for an odor from my liver which I can not control. Wondering if my liver will just give out one day....
So what is it God would have me do with my life with a disability that is such?
I am working on my own business because this disease makes me subject to ridicule and mistreatment by employers and coworkers. I have to either stay single forever or marry someone like me or warn everyone I date about my illness. I feel utterly shunned from society and feel like what's the point of trying. Society I'd for normal people. I'm wondering if I should even try to live and function in this society like a normal person or if I should just say whatever and do what I want with mt life since this disease takes the joy out of whatever I do so that I could be homeless and suffering or with a house and car and suffering still. Seems like what good is anything if people can't even stand to be around you and treat you like less than a human being. At least if I had cancer or something people would care. What I have no one even knows about and so I get mocked and bullied.
My liver is messed up so that I give off awful smells of whatever I eat or put on and I do not have the money or compassion from the medical community to receive help.
I am excluded by people from virtually everything. I found a support groups for people like me, but I feel that my life is utterly worthless. I am only 25 and i've had this for 5 years and i've prayed. And I do not intend to end myself and condemn myself to the lake of fire....
If God doesn't cure me what else could he possibly use someone like me for? Everyone I come in contact with ridicules me and my suffering seems to never end. I've went into debt trying to fix myself and losing support of family members.
I feel like there is no point to my suffering. How can God possibly get any glory out of seeing me be ridiculed daily for an odor from my liver which I can not control. Wondering if my liver will just give out one day....
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