- Jan 24, 2011
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I have little idea why the discussion of sex inflames me. When I engage in conversation about it, there's a part of me that gets very aggressive and defensive to the point where I feel like I want to destroy the world, I hate humanity.
Here's a bit of background on me, I was molested as child and other members in my family have also been subject to the same as well as rape.
I find myself amazed in how common place the discussion of sex has become in out society, and I don't mean that in the sense celebrating life and reproduction but in the sense of indulging in lust. There's no respect, there's no integrity. Though I am in the midst of it all, its like I'm watching the world and all I seem to see is the darkness. I try to disconnect from it, but it gets thrown back in my face. The memories and the feelings. I hate seeing pain inflicted onto others for self personal gain. Thats what I'm essentially seeing and yet its what we do as human beings. It makes me depressed. Faith in humanity is one that has lead me down a very dark path in the past, faith in God has restored my life. The struggles are still with me though, however I always knew as time passes its only going to get harder.
I want and I need help.
Here's a bit of background on me, I was molested as child and other members in my family have also been subject to the same as well as rape.
I find myself amazed in how common place the discussion of sex has become in out society, and I don't mean that in the sense celebrating life and reproduction but in the sense of indulging in lust. There's no respect, there's no integrity. Though I am in the midst of it all, its like I'm watching the world and all I seem to see is the darkness. I try to disconnect from it, but it gets thrown back in my face. The memories and the feelings. I hate seeing pain inflicted onto others for self personal gain. Thats what I'm essentially seeing and yet its what we do as human beings. It makes me depressed. Faith in humanity is one that has lead me down a very dark path in the past, faith in God has restored my life. The struggles are still with me though, however I always knew as time passes its only going to get harder.
I want and I need help.