Hello everyone,
Since a few years I am dealing with anxiety about a person that's really dear to me. But since a few months my anxiety became really severe. I'm always worried something bad might happen to him, since he is so special to me. The anxiety goes to the extreme: I check news websites to see whether there's an accident, I check my whatsapp several times to see when it's the last time he was online, I'm afraid if he uses the car that an accident might happen, if I hear an ambulance I'm scared something happened to him etc. My heart really pounds and I tremble and I already thinking that something bad has happened to him. Every time I think something has happened he comes home happy and then I feel such a relief. Like today I had one of the worst hour of my life again when he did not came home while he already should be. I know this is not normal behavior and my mom was even mad at me one time for skipping church because I was worried that he did not came home that night. I do pray though if I feel anxious, but it's not always going away.
I have to mention that I have dealt with extreme OCD almost my whole life and that I got cured several times this year, but now the OCD symptoms are back again (checking things, make vows etc.)
I was wondering how to deal with this, because tonight when I had severe anxiety again till the point that I almost wanted to cry, cut myself and thinking about suicide, at that point I just knew this cannot be like this anymore and that I need help.
Since a few years I am dealing with anxiety about a person that's really dear to me. But since a few months my anxiety became really severe. I'm always worried something bad might happen to him, since he is so special to me. The anxiety goes to the extreme: I check news websites to see whether there's an accident, I check my whatsapp several times to see when it's the last time he was online, I'm afraid if he uses the car that an accident might happen, if I hear an ambulance I'm scared something happened to him etc. My heart really pounds and I tremble and I already thinking that something bad has happened to him. Every time I think something has happened he comes home happy and then I feel such a relief. Like today I had one of the worst hour of my life again when he did not came home while he already should be. I know this is not normal behavior and my mom was even mad at me one time for skipping church because I was worried that he did not came home that night. I do pray though if I feel anxious, but it's not always going away.
I have to mention that I have dealt with extreme OCD almost my whole life and that I got cured several times this year, but now the OCD symptoms are back again (checking things, make vows etc.)
I was wondering how to deal with this, because tonight when I had severe anxiety again till the point that I almost wanted to cry, cut myself and thinking about suicide, at that point I just knew this cannot be like this anymore and that I need help.