I go through spells that are difficult, and it seems hopeless at the time but experience has taught me that this feeling will pass, and so with that experience i have seen improvement in my mental health. I use to fear quite often, and it was very hard, but i think that Gods answer to my prayers was his Grace. He didnt take my pain away, and i didnt hear a voice from heaven exacty, but the longer i went through it the more it wore me down until finally i didnt care anymore. I figured that hell cannot be any worse than i was suffering with all my fear and torment, and i just accepted my fate. If God is going to send me to hell then so be it, im tired and just cant care anymore. A good thing happened though when i began to think that way, i saw that my fear was gone and that Gods grace sustained me through it all. Even if i died in my fear Gods grace would have sustained me. There is hope brother, trust me, there is hope.
I found hope in pauls words.
2 Corinthians 12:7 And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. 8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
