Really need support.

[hollypparker]

Okay. I am probably going to post on a number of the forums.

I used to be a member of here, under a different name. AmberZak incase anyone remembers.

I am trying to find out what is wrong with me. Most likely I am High Functioning Autistic.

At the moment everything seems to be falling apart. I am having problems at University, where I am considered a Time Consuming pupil but I still don't know what I did wrong (I was asked by the head of department to have a meeting with him where he then proceeded to say that I was not doing things the way they are done at University).

My brother passed away 6 months ago. I shut myself off from almost everyone. I stopped going to church and all sorts. At work, I decided to go on a social trip they are running to a theme park. It was open to all. But then I am told I can't go because the girl who is organising it, doesn't want me to. I have never even worked with her, so I don't know why she doesn't like me.

Also, I tried to get hold of my best friend, and he couldn't be bothered to help me because he said I am just feeling sorry for myself and he thinks I am suicidal, even though I have never said I was, nor implied I was. I am NOT Suicidal. Just running away. But anyway, he really hurt me - more than I can explain. And I am supposed to be going to lunch with him on Sunday afternoon, with a group of us as friends. I don't want to go, but I promised myself I would to try and get out of my depression.

I feel so lost. I have always felt I was a puzzle piece put into the wrong box, but right now I feel really lost. I always used to think that God made me different for a reason, now I think it was all just a mess up.

I am also lost, because, from the age of 7, I spent every week, with out fail, praying that little bro would be cured, but he died instead.

Please be sensitive with me. I am very fragile right now.

 

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You are in my prayers.

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[Nilla]

Okay. I am probably going to post on a number of the forums.

I used to be a member of here, under a different name. AmberZak incase anyone remembers.

I am trying to find out what is wrong with me. Most likely I am High Functioning Autistic.

At the moment everything seems to be falling apart. I am having problems at University, where I am considered a Time Consuming pupil but I still don't know what I did wrong (I was asked by the head of department to have a meeting with him where he then proceeded to say that I was not doing things the way they are done at University).

My brother passed away 6 months ago. I shut myself off from almost everyone. I stopped going to church and all sorts. At work, I decided to go on a social trip they are running to a theme park. It was open to all. But then I am told I can't go because the girl who is organising it, doesn't want me to. I have never even worked with her, so I don't know why she doesn't like me.

Also, I tried to get hold of my best friend, and he couldn't be bothered to help me because he said I am just feeling sorry for myself and he thinks I am suicidal, even though I have never said I was, nor implied I was. I am NOT Suicidal. Just running away. But anyway, he really hurt me - more than I can explain. And I am supposed to be going to lunch with him on Sunday afternoon, with a group of us as friends. I don't want to go, but I promised myself I would to try and get out of my depression.

I feel so lost. I have always felt I was a puzzle piece put into the wrong box, but right now I feel really lost. I always used to think that God made me different for a reason, now I think it was all just a mess up.

I am also lost, because, from the age of 7, I spent every week, with out fail, praying that little bro would be cured, but he died instead.

Please be sensitive with me. I am very fragile right now.

I don't know if you're going to like what I'm going to say but I'm gonna say it anyway. I don't want to discourage you...just try to help you see it in a different light.

When it comes to you praying for your brother and feeling God didn't hear you or just ignored your prayers. He didn't, trust me on that. God always listens to us!! But what we don't always remember is that we only see a tiny fraction of Gods amazing puzzel. A puzzel we are all apart of as His children. I know you loved your brother a lot and wanted nothing else then for him to be free from whatever it was that was making him ill. (I guessing he was sick since you said you prayed for him to be cured) But God sees the whole picture and your brother is know with Him, free from pain and troubles.



I don't know why those other people has done and said what they have done, I'm sorry you're going through all that on top of losing your brother.

Even though you may feel God isn't there He is. I know He is and He is ready to listen, when ever you want to talk to Him. And He is carrying you through this.

If you ever want to talk, I'm here.

Nilla