I have always been a "believer" however I have not always chosen to live a Christian life style. I was adopted at a very young age by a very loving but not faith based couple. They always encouraged me to go to church and would drop me off. However the only time I remember my Mom sitting in a church pew was if we were having a special program.
As I got older I may have tended to lean towards the more wild side however I still felt that yearning for Christ. Several times I have started to attend church just to stop a few years later. I have also been the person who would buy the bible study with good intentions but it would just collect dust on my shelf.
For the past 4 years my family and I have dealt with a lot of loss. Loss of loved ones to cancer, murder, and suicide that left me angry. Until a month ago I had been so angry that even hearing Christian music made me turn the channel really fast.
Around a month ago as I was driving home I felt this deep yearning to reach out and speak to God and have not stopped since. He is really pulling and speaking to my heart. I wake up with him on my mind, fall asleep reading the bible, and have even replaced the location of the Facebook app on my phone with my bible app.
This week has been extremely trying between work (Mental Health Clinic), cars breaking down, 15 year old deciding he did not want to go to school anymore, and an episode tonight where I was extremely Judge and spoke rudely to. Still yet I crave Gods words and to be in prayer with him. I was getting ready to put my 7 year old to bed when the thought of looking for a Christian based forum came to me and very long story short here I am.
Still yearning for God and trying to grow in my faith.
As I got older I may have tended to lean towards the more wild side however I still felt that yearning for Christ. Several times I have started to attend church just to stop a few years later. I have also been the person who would buy the bible study with good intentions but it would just collect dust on my shelf.
For the past 4 years my family and I have dealt with a lot of loss. Loss of loved ones to cancer, murder, and suicide that left me angry. Until a month ago I had been so angry that even hearing Christian music made me turn the channel really fast.
Around a month ago as I was driving home I felt this deep yearning to reach out and speak to God and have not stopped since. He is really pulling and speaking to my heart. I wake up with him on my mind, fall asleep reading the bible, and have even replaced the location of the Facebook app on my phone with my bible app.
This week has been extremely trying between work (Mental Health Clinic), cars breaking down, 15 year old deciding he did not want to go to school anymore, and an episode tonight where I was extremely Judge and spoke rudely to. Still yet I crave Gods words and to be in prayer with him. I was getting ready to put my 7 year old to bed when the thought of looking for a Christian based forum came to me and very long story short here I am.
Still yearning for God and trying to grow in my faith.