I know some of you may think I need to go to therapy. I have tried that, but unfortunately therapy isn't cheap, I don't make much money from my job (which is a temp job anyway) so I also have no insurance. They keep telling me they are going to hire me but it never happens so I am in this constant state of limbo. (I also feel convicted that I need to get another job because of a blasphemous feeling / thought against God's Spirit associated to it); aside from not liking the job. I am also borrowing someone's car because I don't have one anymore because mine stopped working. Maybe therapy someday, but I can't right now.