- Aug 8, 2017
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As if the feelings crept in the past couple of days with the same sex attractions, I've fell into watching lesbian inappropriate content, something i haven't touched in months. I had to quickly shut it down, I've already repented to God, and quickly finding refuge, but I'm asking for as much people to pray for me as possible.
I saw the triggers this week: feeling of isolation, roughness from men in my life recently, the sudden happy feeling when women shown warmth towards me, me feeling drawn to women and feeling less safe around men.
And yet I played into it and willingly fell into lust. The only difference this time is that I know that's not who I am anymore, I no longer identify with it, and like how I deal with other sins in my life, I'm dragging this burden by the neck straight to the Father.
I'm seeing the slippery slope of it, so I'm asking for prayers/advice/encouragement.
I saw the triggers this week: feeling of isolation, roughness from men in my life recently, the sudden happy feeling when women shown warmth towards me, me feeling drawn to women and feeling less safe around men.
And yet I played into it and willingly fell into lust. The only difference this time is that I know that's not who I am anymore, I no longer identify with it, and like how I deal with other sins in my life, I'm dragging this burden by the neck straight to the Father.
I'm seeing the slippery slope of it, so I'm asking for prayers/advice/encouragement.