There is a negative influence in our house. I don't call it home anymore because it doesn't feel like home anymore.
We all have suffered from this... thing.
-My daughter (23) is angry, selfish, depressed, and she and her husband split up a few months ago.
-Prior to him leaving, SIL (32) was depressed and suicidal. He had multiple trips to the mental hospital.
-My mother (72) is upset, angry, defensive, depressed.
-My son (11) is tormented with angry outbursts for no reason, possibly depressed, I'm not sure yet. He starts counseling this Tuesday.
-My husband (47) was suicidal and withdrawn, possibly angry too but the depression might have hid it well.
-I (42) have been fighting crippling depression for months, beyond the help of medications. Suicidal and withdrawn. I have no will to care for myself or others.
-Truth is, I don't think any of us have the will to care for others when we're here.
My husband of almost 15 years began an affair in early August. I did not know. I tried to commit suicide on Nov 22 and got out of the hospital on Nov 29. I discovered the affair and he moved out into his affair partner's house that same night, almost an hour away.
The reason I'm assuming the negativity is in the house is because:
My SIL has improved mentally and has calmed down, no longer suicidal.
My husband is no longer suicidal. (He's a monster when he visits)
My son does not like coming to the house from school because he is "happier" there.
My mother works so she doesn't spend as much time at the house.
When my daughter spends a few days at her friends, she is calmer and gentler.
When I was in the hospital and, last night, in a 24 hour facility, I immediately felt safer and calmer.
We ALL feel better after we've spent a few hours away from the house, even if it's just to the store for groceries. The house develops a dark feeling if we've been here too long.
I've been praying every day for its removal, from the house and our lives. I've been praying for protection from its influence. I am asking for help because I do not feel strong enough to remove it myself. I feel blocked when I pray. I am tormented by nightmares and sleep paralysis after I pray for my husband. I feel lost and defeated in the mornings.
Please and thank you for any prayers, kind words, or any other assistance or advice you might provide.
We all have suffered from this... thing.
-My daughter (23) is angry, selfish, depressed, and she and her husband split up a few months ago.
-Prior to him leaving, SIL (32) was depressed and suicidal. He had multiple trips to the mental hospital.
-My mother (72) is upset, angry, defensive, depressed.
-My son (11) is tormented with angry outbursts for no reason, possibly depressed, I'm not sure yet. He starts counseling this Tuesday.
-My husband (47) was suicidal and withdrawn, possibly angry too but the depression might have hid it well.
-I (42) have been fighting crippling depression for months, beyond the help of medications. Suicidal and withdrawn. I have no will to care for myself or others.
-Truth is, I don't think any of us have the will to care for others when we're here.
My husband of almost 15 years began an affair in early August. I did not know. I tried to commit suicide on Nov 22 and got out of the hospital on Nov 29. I discovered the affair and he moved out into his affair partner's house that same night, almost an hour away.
The reason I'm assuming the negativity is in the house is because:
My SIL has improved mentally and has calmed down, no longer suicidal.
My husband is no longer suicidal. (He's a monster when he visits)
My son does not like coming to the house from school because he is "happier" there.
My mother works so she doesn't spend as much time at the house.
When my daughter spends a few days at her friends, she is calmer and gentler.
When I was in the hospital and, last night, in a 24 hour facility, I immediately felt safer and calmer.
We ALL feel better after we've spent a few hours away from the house, even if it's just to the store for groceries. The house develops a dark feeling if we've been here too long.
I've been praying every day for its removal, from the house and our lives. I've been praying for protection from its influence. I am asking for help because I do not feel strong enough to remove it myself. I feel blocked when I pray. I am tormented by nightmares and sleep paralysis after I pray for my husband. I feel lost and defeated in the mornings.
Please and thank you for any prayers, kind words, or any other assistance or advice you might provide.