I have huge guilt about the Las Vegas shooting that happened in 2017. Just about everyone says that I had nothing to do with it, but I've seen Fox News hint that I caused the shooting.
So my mental health is unstable right now. Some say I'm psychotic, but I've taken my anti-psychosis medication for over two years now and I don't think I'm suffering from psychosis anymore. I just have certain beliefs that I will carry for the rest of my days.
Suicide has been on my mind recently, but I'm not gonna do it. It just sucks cos yesterday I went into the emergency room and said I wanna be admitted to a mental hospital, but they said I'm too logical to be put into a mental hospital involuntarily and it's a hard place to get in voluntarily, so they just scheduled me weekly appointments with a psychiatrist. But the psychiatrist was supposed to call me today, and he/she hasn't called, so idk what's up with that. There are instructors in the place that I live, so I guess I can talk to them if I'm feeling too troubled.
So please pray for me to achieve some sort of peaceful state of mind. I'm feeling kinda anguished right now. Believing in God and believing that He has a plan for me I think helps me deal with my situation.
So my mental health is unstable right now. Some say I'm psychotic, but I've taken my anti-psychosis medication for over two years now and I don't think I'm suffering from psychosis anymore. I just have certain beliefs that I will carry for the rest of my days.
Suicide has been on my mind recently, but I'm not gonna do it. It just sucks cos yesterday I went into the emergency room and said I wanna be admitted to a mental hospital, but they said I'm too logical to be put into a mental hospital involuntarily and it's a hard place to get in voluntarily, so they just scheduled me weekly appointments with a psychiatrist. But the psychiatrist was supposed to call me today, and he/she hasn't called, so idk what's up with that. There are instructors in the place that I live, so I guess I can talk to them if I'm feeling too troubled.
So please pray for me to achieve some sort of peaceful state of mind. I'm feeling kinda anguished right now. Believing in God and believing that He has a plan for me I think helps me deal with my situation.