I came to Christ a month ago. My wife brought me to Him over the last three years. And I need Him now more than I ever knew.
I am abusive. My wife, who brought me to Christ, is my third, and the first to call it what it is. She's left me, with good reason. And while I hope that God will change her heart, I must accept the truth about myself. All three marriages ended because I'm the sweetest, kindest, most gentle and supportive partner, when I get angry I become something else entirely. Only now do I see it for what it is.
I've blamed everyone else for my actions. I hit because I felt threatened. It wasn't me, it was the rage. My father made me into this. A hundred other justifications. But not one truth.
This must end now. Not to bring her back, but because every time I struck one of my partners, I struck Christ. Every obscenity, every insult, every threat was done against Christ, and against all my brothers and sisters in Christ. I know this now.
I ask that you all pray for me, that God will change me. I'm taking steps, and am in therapy for depression and anxiety. I plan to bring this new self realization to the attention of my therapist at my next appointment.
Please, friends, pray for me. I don't want to be like this anymore.
I am abusive. My wife, who brought me to Christ, is my third, and the first to call it what it is. She's left me, with good reason. And while I hope that God will change her heart, I must accept the truth about myself. All three marriages ended because I'm the sweetest, kindest, most gentle and supportive partner, when I get angry I become something else entirely. Only now do I see it for what it is.
I've blamed everyone else for my actions. I hit because I felt threatened. It wasn't me, it was the rage. My father made me into this. A hundred other justifications. But not one truth.
This must end now. Not to bring her back, but because every time I struck one of my partners, I struck Christ. Every obscenity, every insult, every threat was done against Christ, and against all my brothers and sisters in Christ. I know this now.
I ask that you all pray for me, that God will change me. I'm taking steps, and am in therapy for depression and anxiety. I plan to bring this new self realization to the attention of my therapist at my next appointment.
Please, friends, pray for me. I don't want to be like this anymore.