I was having a compulsion not to watch a specific scene from a tv episode in youtube. i do not remember why. probably, some thoughts without my will popped up about a promise to God. I remember being anxious about it and reminding myself never click that episode. I, accidentally clicked it and watched some seconds from that scene. I do not remember what exact thoughts popped up without my will and I cant confirm if they were without my will. the last days, more scarier words without my will accompany the thoughts without my will that create compulsions. i worry if i was so tired to do a compulsion, so, without my will, I, maybe, changed the compulsion into "must not watch that scene" i do not remember. the only thing I remember was me reminding myself not to watch that specific scene.