I will be paying my rent in 4 days, however, as it currently stands, I only have 50 dollars left in disposable income.
I recently left the sex industry a few days ago and I am trying not to be tempted to go back. I have no family support of any kind nor relatives that live nearby or any friends I could borrow money off of. I am a bookworm but for almost the past 2 weeks I've had the desire to read only the bible. I have read the entire book of job as I feel this book is most applicable to my situation (except I am in perfect health aside from my sanity being chipped away at)I have been praying a lot more and have tried to fast but failed. I am currently waiting in a temp agency but I feel that I'm at my breaking point. I have never held a regular job for over 3 months so work is very hard to come by.
I have a cell bill that is coming up on the 6th of March and my weekly metro will expire Wednesday. There is a friend off a friend that I occasionally do odd jobs for but he pays 12 an hour and the jobs are 2 hours each. I am very worried about paying for these two things.
As far as food goes I have been forced to ramen noodles and the value menu at fast food. To be honest I don't have much of a desire to live anymore. I've had a rough upbringing and got out of an abusive relationship prior to coming to NYC. I have begun to feel that it would be better to be dead rather than resort to begging, borrowing or risking my soul for sex work.
I am 23 and I really need prayers. I have applied to some jobs yesterday but I don't know what else to do. It's so hard not to be doubtful of god and I know turning from him was what brought me to the situation I'm in now.
Thanks!
I recently left the sex industry a few days ago and I am trying not to be tempted to go back. I have no family support of any kind nor relatives that live nearby or any friends I could borrow money off of. I am a bookworm but for almost the past 2 weeks I've had the desire to read only the bible. I have read the entire book of job as I feel this book is most applicable to my situation (except I am in perfect health aside from my sanity being chipped away at)I have been praying a lot more and have tried to fast but failed. I am currently waiting in a temp agency but I feel that I'm at my breaking point. I have never held a regular job for over 3 months so work is very hard to come by.
I have a cell bill that is coming up on the 6th of March and my weekly metro will expire Wednesday. There is a friend off a friend that I occasionally do odd jobs for but he pays 12 an hour and the jobs are 2 hours each. I am very worried about paying for these two things.
As far as food goes I have been forced to ramen noodles and the value menu at fast food. To be honest I don't have much of a desire to live anymore. I've had a rough upbringing and got out of an abusive relationship prior to coming to NYC. I have begun to feel that it would be better to be dead rather than resort to begging, borrowing or risking my soul for sex work.
I am 23 and I really need prayers. I have applied to some jobs yesterday but I don't know what else to do. It's so hard not to be doubtful of god and I know turning from him was what brought me to the situation I'm in now.
Thanks!