I have rituals and patterns that i have to keep or else i feel my hands are dirty again.
If you are following set ways that are not the correct way of washing your hands, then it is possible that they are indeed still dirty!!!!
In case you are letting this coronavirus thing get the better of you, this could have you distracted and worrying so you are not able to do your sanitary safety things really correctly. We need to stay prayerful with God so we can do things caringly and wisely.
Jesus says,
"without Me you can do nothing," in John 15:5. Only with Christ can we have the strength with wisdom to do things right.
Chances are small i get the virus because im not old
According to the authorities who have been informing me, any age person can get COVID-19. So, if my info is correct . . . you are making things up if you suppose you don't have much chance of getting it.
But your chances can be small or not at all, if you do things correctly to take care of yourself. And it won't matter if your hands feel dirty, if you know you have followed the correct procedure for hand washing. You will know those feelings are a lie.
But in case you are following a procedure that you made up, it could be your hands are not clean.
So, I have prayed and checked with public health authorities about how to take care of myself. You can check what the CDC and WHO say, and follow the directions. Also, possibly there are directives for how to keep yourself safe if you are out where other people are. And I would say if you go out, wash your hands as soon as you come home . . . the way the CDC is saying to wash.