Hello! I have an issue, but let me preface it by saying my life is really amazing and I really do appreciate the people I have and the love I am given by God.
There's this situation that's been eating up my thoughts and I don't think it's any coincidence. I have been praying since middle school for a best friend/companion to come into my life. There have been a few times where I thought someone was that person, but the relationship didn't work because they weren't as focused on Jesus as I am. So, this year I made friends with someone and they're a really devoted Christian. Our friendship grew to the point where I could be myself around them very fast. It was a feeling I'd never had with anyone else. It was so perfect. It was exactly what I was looking for, but it seemed to good to be true. After a while, I started to notice this friend was having a lot of social anxiety. I could tell they were so happy being my friend, but they wanted everyone to appreciate them just as much. They said some things that I misinterpreted as they didn't want me around anymore so I gave them space. They asked why after about a week and when I told them, they were apologizing and saying they wanted to rebuild our friendship. The next day I spoke with them and they said that I was overdramatic and caused way to much stress for them. So we got into some arguments and then we exchanged apologies. I slowly started to not give the situation much thought.
Second semester started and they once again did not like me. I tried interacting a few times, but they were not having it. It made me think a lot about them and I started to pray a lot for them. A few weeks ago we had a meeting with our team that was very heart wrenching and I was crying. After it was over, they told me they were sorry about everything and I was so happy because I thought maybe we could be close again. I spoke to them a few days after and they said that we were still trying to rekindle. I asked what they meant by that and they said that we're just not gonna be mean to each other anymore. I've had lots of anger and doubt about the situation, but I really feel in my heart that it was the Holy Spirit that guided them to apologize. The only thing that makes sense to me is that we are supposed to friends. It doesn't make sense that we're not friends. I know in my heart that God placed us in each other's lives for a reason. This is a really foggy zone and I don't know what to do. I know what I want to do. I want to them how much I care about them and how much I miss their friendship. I want to tell them that I will love them no matter what and go through any hardships with them. I realized that I haven't been praying for them since the apology and I need to do that. I'm just wondering if I can have any advice and prayers. Thank you!
There's this situation that's been eating up my thoughts and I don't think it's any coincidence. I have been praying since middle school for a best friend/companion to come into my life. There have been a few times where I thought someone was that person, but the relationship didn't work because they weren't as focused on Jesus as I am. So, this year I made friends with someone and they're a really devoted Christian. Our friendship grew to the point where I could be myself around them very fast. It was a feeling I'd never had with anyone else. It was so perfect. It was exactly what I was looking for, but it seemed to good to be true. After a while, I started to notice this friend was having a lot of social anxiety. I could tell they were so happy being my friend, but they wanted everyone to appreciate them just as much. They said some things that I misinterpreted as they didn't want me around anymore so I gave them space. They asked why after about a week and when I told them, they were apologizing and saying they wanted to rebuild our friendship. The next day I spoke with them and they said that I was overdramatic and caused way to much stress for them. So we got into some arguments and then we exchanged apologies. I slowly started to not give the situation much thought.
Second semester started and they once again did not like me. I tried interacting a few times, but they were not having it. It made me think a lot about them and I started to pray a lot for them. A few weeks ago we had a meeting with our team that was very heart wrenching and I was crying. After it was over, they told me they were sorry about everything and I was so happy because I thought maybe we could be close again. I spoke to them a few days after and they said that we were still trying to rekindle. I asked what they meant by that and they said that we're just not gonna be mean to each other anymore. I've had lots of anger and doubt about the situation, but I really feel in my heart that it was the Holy Spirit that guided them to apologize. The only thing that makes sense to me is that we are supposed to friends. It doesn't make sense that we're not friends. I know in my heart that God placed us in each other's lives for a reason. This is a really foggy zone and I don't know what to do. I know what I want to do. I want to them how much I care about them and how much I miss their friendship. I want to tell them that I will love them no matter what and go through any hardships with them. I realized that I haven't been praying for them since the apology and I need to do that. I'm just wondering if I can have any advice and prayers. Thank you!