Hello
About two weeks ago I was Saved, I have always believed in God and considered myself Christian but I made it "official".
The next day I noticed some changes, like the negative self-talk in my head had severely gone down, the feeling of fear in my gut has decreased. I can't explain it, but I felt a lot of positive changes almost right away.
But a few days later I started to get intruding thoughts about dumb stuff, like "is it too late for me to have a life" (I'm 47), "I'll never have a career, family, etc". basically issues I have been concerned about creeping in. I have been praying my bum off and it works, then the feelings creep back. I pray again, and things subside, then they come back, etc. I can feel things getting better overall, but does this sound like I'm doing something wrong?, or am I right where I should be after being Saved a mere two weeks before?
I have dyslexia and a lot of times type things wrong and don't make sense, so I will admit that right now.
Thanks
Mark
Hi Brother, first off, I see you're still pretty new around here, so
WELCOME TO CF , but far more importantly,
WELCOME TO THE FAMILY OF GOD as well
..
Luke 15:10.
Like you, spiritual battles with our common enemy began immediately after I became a Christian (I'd gone thirty years in church "thinking" that I was a Christian all along, until the day I actually became one that is (11/2/86). And your thought-life will probably get worse, so you need to be aware of what Satan is up to (on the one hand), and be continually growing in your walk with the Lord (on the other). More than anything else, you need to remember that the One who saved you, who sent His Son here to die on the Cross for you, loves you and needs to be the One you always choose to believe and trust, no matter how persuasive Satan's lies may sound to you in the moment. God is not the author of confusion, but Satan surely is
(so if something doesn't sound/seem right to you, it probably isn't).
Here are some verses that may be worth taking a look at and taking some time to consider, along with the ones Richard left you above. Just click on the links if you'd like to see them.
1 Corinthians 10:13; James 4:7, 1 Peter 5:8-9; Ephesians 6:10-17; 2 Corinthians 10:5
Joshua 1:8; Psalm 1:1-3, 119:9-11; 2 Timothy 2:15, 3:16-17
John 3:16, 18, 5:24, 6:37-40, 10:27-28; 20:31; Acts 4:12; Romans 4:5, 8:1, 28, 29-30, 31-39, 10:9-10; Ephesians 1:4-6; 2:4-5, 8-10, 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24; Titus 3:5; Hebrews 7:25; 1 John 1:8-10, 2:1-2, 5:13
There's a book of short stories by C S Lewis that really helped me understand what Satan was up to when I was a new Christian, and how he was/is still working in my life since then. It's called
The Screwtape Letters, and you can buy it
here, or read it online for free
here. If you can afford it, I'd recommend the book that costs $$, particularly the one I posited for you here, but either will work in the end
Lewis read these stories live on the radio during WWII, but then formed them into the collection of stories that we have today. This work of fiction is written from the demons' POV, so just be aware that when you see the word "Enemy" in this book, for instance, God is the One who's actually being referred to
(be sure to read the preface(s) and introduction too as they are helpful and interesting)
BTW, I rarely recommend books, and it's even rarer for me to recommend fiction, but this particular book will give you real life insights/understanding into the world and the thinking of our enemy in a way that no non-fiction book I've ever found can do.
Finally, just take time to be in His word everyday, sitting at His feet, learning from Him, and growing up in Him. There's no rush for you to do anything else as a new Christian, in fact, I believe this is what the Lord intends for His new children.
Do you have a church to attend/be a part of yet, because that is VERY important. Along with prayer and Bible study, you need to hear the word of God preached weekly and be able to partake in the Lord's Supper, and you need the direct and regular fellowship of other Christian brothers and sisters ..
Hebrews 10:24-25 (and it is our pastors who have been tasked by the Lord with keeping watch over our souls while we remain here, as aliens and strangers for His glory ..
Matthew 5:16; Hebrews 13:17; 1 Peter 2:11).
God bless you! Praying for you!
Yours and His,
David
p.s. - you should also seek to be baptized as soon as you can (if you have not already been baptized, that is).
1 Thessalonians 5
23 ..May the God of peace Himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body
be preserved complete, without blame at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.
24 ..Faithful is He who calls you, and He also will bring it to pass.