- Jan 30, 2021
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Hi everyone. I've been a believer for almost 7 months now. I believe in God, Christ, and objective right and wrong.
I struggle deeply with mental illness. I had been seeking treatment for 7 years before coming to God, but I did not begin to heal until I accepted Christ because secular therapists make up their own rules (e.g. don't cut yourself but you can have random sex whenever you want).
I am so happy to know our living Creator and His Son I am so deeply happy that He is real.
But I also struggle with anger, and mood swings. My illness attacks me with scripture. If I read the Bible too much, I lose touch with reality. I have not been able to find a church here because of my illness, the virus, and because I am not socially skilled at tolerating different views. A lot of the Christians around me are anti-maskers and anti-vax, some are against modern medicine (which I need to stay lucid), they believed I had demons inside me and didn't believe in mental illness, and that made me go into psychosis for months - because I am sick and impressionable, not possessed.
God even removed Satan's presence from me completely, after I asked Him to. I am not joking. Satan literally never bothers me. I feel desire, but not temptation. I think He did it to show me I am not possessed, but rather I am simply sick with a very serious illness.
I feel so alone. And I feel so angry that people who claim to know God were so ignorant about what I struggle with most. And well, I want to talk about it with other believers.
I have 3 friends locally, all believers. One has similar issues to mine, one is beginning to patiently teach me about God (we have decided that I start with the children's Bible, so I can understand it better), and the other is my grandmother.
I feel lost and confused and deeply frustrated. I almost destroyed my life within the first few months of having a relationship with God, because I listened to well-meaning, but ignorant people. I want to get my story out there, help others who struggle like I do. I don't want to just wait to die, alone.
So here I am. I am very skilled and talented musician, and I am pretty good at drawing. I am hoping and praying that I will eventually be able to spread God through my music and reach the lost.
So yeah. Thanks for reading. Any words of compassion and encouragement would be deeply, deeply appreciated.
I struggle deeply with mental illness. I had been seeking treatment for 7 years before coming to God, but I did not begin to heal until I accepted Christ because secular therapists make up their own rules (e.g. don't cut yourself but you can have random sex whenever you want).
I am so happy to know our living Creator and His Son I am so deeply happy that He is real.
But I also struggle with anger, and mood swings. My illness attacks me with scripture. If I read the Bible too much, I lose touch with reality. I have not been able to find a church here because of my illness, the virus, and because I am not socially skilled at tolerating different views. A lot of the Christians around me are anti-maskers and anti-vax, some are against modern medicine (which I need to stay lucid), they believed I had demons inside me and didn't believe in mental illness, and that made me go into psychosis for months - because I am sick and impressionable, not possessed.
God even removed Satan's presence from me completely, after I asked Him to. I am not joking. Satan literally never bothers me. I feel desire, but not temptation. I think He did it to show me I am not possessed, but rather I am simply sick with a very serious illness.
I feel so alone. And I feel so angry that people who claim to know God were so ignorant about what I struggle with most. And well, I want to talk about it with other believers.
I have 3 friends locally, all believers. One has similar issues to mine, one is beginning to patiently teach me about God (we have decided that I start with the children's Bible, so I can understand it better), and the other is my grandmother.
I feel lost and confused and deeply frustrated. I almost destroyed my life within the first few months of having a relationship with God, because I listened to well-meaning, but ignorant people. I want to get my story out there, help others who struggle like I do. I don't want to just wait to die, alone.
So here I am. I am very skilled and talented musician, and I am pretty good at drawing. I am hoping and praying that I will eventually be able to spread God through my music and reach the lost.
So yeah. Thanks for reading. Any words of compassion and encouragement would be deeply, deeply appreciated.