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One of the only activities we absolutely know we'll be doing 100% for sure in the New Heaven and New Earth after the second coming and the millennium, is singing praise to the Lord and the Lamb. It's all through Revelation.
I have to confess, I dread that part. I've never enjoyed singing. Even singing in the shower I hate the sound of my own voice trying to sing. When I've gone to church I've never sang along with the hymns. Not because I don't want to worship the Lord and praise Him, but because I just don't like singing at all. I'm embarrassed every time I have to do it, and it's more than just I can't carry a tune and have a bad voice for singing, which both are true, but I'm clumsy (especially now, degenerative nerve diseases don't exactly tune up your fine motor skills), always have been so, but I always wanted to learn to play guitar, or other musical instruments and I tried, and I'd love to be able to learn if I was able in a different condition where I'd be good at it. But even if I was capable I don't want to sing. I don't even like listening to other people sing, even if I can acknowledge that they're really good at it and very talented, it's not to my taste no matter the lyrical content or subject matter.
When I've mentioned to pastors they've always said "oh you'll learn to like it, you'll be perfect at it" or "it'll be for God so you will like it and it'll be the best thing ever", and to me, it's kind of like "well waterboarding is torture, but if it were done in God's presence you'd consider it pleasurable then?"
Now if He'd let me play an instrument and I don't even mind whatever one He picked for me okay I'll go ahead and learn this instrument and try to please Him, or dance like David before the Lord (and being that I have multiple sclerosis I can't exactly do that in this body, I'd be ecstatic to be able to do so in a redeemed body, I might not be able to help myself, in fact unless He tells me no I would just have to dance for Him to thank Him at the very least that I have a body that can do that). Traveling, building, doing things to serve Him.. just please don't make me sing!
I have to confess, I dread that part. I've never enjoyed singing. Even singing in the shower I hate the sound of my own voice trying to sing. When I've gone to church I've never sang along with the hymns. Not because I don't want to worship the Lord and praise Him, but because I just don't like singing at all. I'm embarrassed every time I have to do it, and it's more than just I can't carry a tune and have a bad voice for singing, which both are true, but I'm clumsy (especially now, degenerative nerve diseases don't exactly tune up your fine motor skills), always have been so, but I always wanted to learn to play guitar, or other musical instruments and I tried, and I'd love to be able to learn if I was able in a different condition where I'd be good at it. But even if I was capable I don't want to sing. I don't even like listening to other people sing, even if I can acknowledge that they're really good at it and very talented, it's not to my taste no matter the lyrical content or subject matter.
When I've mentioned to pastors they've always said "oh you'll learn to like it, you'll be perfect at it" or "it'll be for God so you will like it and it'll be the best thing ever", and to me, it's kind of like "well waterboarding is torture, but if it were done in God's presence you'd consider it pleasurable then?"
Now if He'd let me play an instrument and I don't even mind whatever one He picked for me okay I'll go ahead and learn this instrument and try to please Him, or dance like David before the Lord (and being that I have multiple sclerosis I can't exactly do that in this body, I'd be ecstatic to be able to do so in a redeemed body, I might not be able to help myself, in fact unless He tells me no I would just have to dance for Him to thank Him at the very least that I have a body that can do that). Traveling, building, doing things to serve Him.. just please don't make me sing!