I Have lived a not so perfect life/marriage and now looking to fix it all.
I am married to my wife who I met having an extramarital affair, we have been married for close to 5 years now and have a 4yo and another child on the way. I am 34 years old and my wife is 31.
We did not meet with everything on the table and didn't plan to build a life together let alone one following God.
We were both Married when we met, we both divorced and re-married to each other within the same year and then immediately became pregnant with our first kid.
My wife has battled drug addictions and I have dealt with inappropriate content addictions we lived together but didn't really grow together. Up until late last year both of us knew nothing of each others addictions, yet we continued to fight as if something underlying was wrong. We would fight over stupid things. I also feel that I have/had anger issues that developed during the last year, due to fighting but never getting anything resolved. This all culminated in my wife having an affair in December last year.
This shook me to my core. I have thought about divorce over and over since it happened but have chose to stick it out. I have told her I forgive her and I want us to work out. I have prayed for wisdom and strength to get through this. I am just having a really hard time dealing with the deception. I never felt like she was falling out of love with me the whole time the affair was happening, she treated me the same way the entire time which makes it so hard to trust now. Also that she hid an opioid addiction from me for close to 3 years makes me question everything.
I want to move forward and heal, and hopefully find a way to fix our marriage. We attend church regularly now and have been baptized. We get a long better and honestly believe that the affair and drug addiction is over. However every once and a while out of nowhere I have this overwhelming feeling that there may be something that she is hiding from me.
I have confessed my inappropriate content addiction to her, and have stopped using inappropriate content. This has also proved difficult because my spouse enjoys watching it when we are intimate.
I feel like there are so many things wrong in my Marriage but I don't want to leave I don't want to start over but I also don't know where to start in fixing it. I suppose christian marriage counseling would be a good start and I have signed up for that but due to what is going on in the world lately I don't know when that may actually be possible. I need wisdom and prayers.
Please Help
I am married to my wife who I met having an extramarital affair, we have been married for close to 5 years now and have a 4yo and another child on the way. I am 34 years old and my wife is 31.
We did not meet with everything on the table and didn't plan to build a life together let alone one following God.
We were both Married when we met, we both divorced and re-married to each other within the same year and then immediately became pregnant with our first kid.
My wife has battled drug addictions and I have dealt with inappropriate content addictions we lived together but didn't really grow together. Up until late last year both of us knew nothing of each others addictions, yet we continued to fight as if something underlying was wrong. We would fight over stupid things. I also feel that I have/had anger issues that developed during the last year, due to fighting but never getting anything resolved. This all culminated in my wife having an affair in December last year.
This shook me to my core. I have thought about divorce over and over since it happened but have chose to stick it out. I have told her I forgive her and I want us to work out. I have prayed for wisdom and strength to get through this. I am just having a really hard time dealing with the deception. I never felt like she was falling out of love with me the whole time the affair was happening, she treated me the same way the entire time which makes it so hard to trust now. Also that she hid an opioid addiction from me for close to 3 years makes me question everything.
I want to move forward and heal, and hopefully find a way to fix our marriage. We attend church regularly now and have been baptized. We get a long better and honestly believe that the affair and drug addiction is over. However every once and a while out of nowhere I have this overwhelming feeling that there may be something that she is hiding from me.
I have confessed my inappropriate content addiction to her, and have stopped using inappropriate content. This has also proved difficult because my spouse enjoys watching it when we are intimate.
I feel like there are so many things wrong in my Marriage but I don't want to leave I don't want to start over but I also don't know where to start in fixing it. I suppose christian marriage counseling would be a good start and I have signed up for that but due to what is going on in the world lately I don't know when that may actually be possible. I need wisdom and prayers.
Please Help