I am worrying for some thoughts without my will that are about promises to an other God about not doing an old compulsion. These thoughts without my will pop up when I am frustrated or when I am carefree.
I do not want to do the compulsion and I cant ignore ocd. so, my system suggests me to trick ocd by allowing these thoughts without my will about promises to an other God about not doing the tiring compulsion. I feel relieved because I am being forced not to do the compulsion. The problem is I cant remember how strong these thoughts without my will are or why i end up having them or why I feel relieved. I do not remember, for a second, if my system allows them on purpose or if I have the chance to stop them.
sometimes, i am able to confirm that they are without my will cause I freak and pray to an other God to tell Him that they are without my will. I even try not to think them but I cant. Some other times, I am carefree and bored that even though I know my system will suggest me to pretend that I have thoughts without my will about promises to an other God in order to trick my ocd and feel free.
I have told myself not to force myself out of a compulsion by having these thoughts without my will cause I end up more worried. but i always fail. it is like as if I forgot how much worry I may have later or how much scary these thoughts without my will are. I tried to stop but I failed. and sometimes, I accidentally do the compulsion and I am very worried because I was supposed not to do them because these thoughts without my will are about promises to an other God not to do the compulsion
I do not want to do the compulsion and I cant ignore ocd. so, my system suggests me to trick ocd by allowing these thoughts without my will about promises to an other God about not doing the tiring compulsion. I feel relieved because I am being forced not to do the compulsion. The problem is I cant remember how strong these thoughts without my will are or why i end up having them or why I feel relieved. I do not remember, for a second, if my system allows them on purpose or if I have the chance to stop them.
sometimes, i am able to confirm that they are without my will cause I freak and pray to an other God to tell Him that they are without my will. I even try not to think them but I cant. Some other times, I am carefree and bored that even though I know my system will suggest me to pretend that I have thoughts without my will about promises to an other God in order to trick my ocd and feel free.
I have told myself not to force myself out of a compulsion by having these thoughts without my will cause I end up more worried. but i always fail. it is like as if I forgot how much worry I may have later or how much scary these thoughts without my will are. I tried to stop but I failed. and sometimes, I accidentally do the compulsion and I am very worried because I was supposed not to do them because these thoughts without my will are about promises to an other God not to do the compulsion