Hi SeekinTruth,
First off, Thanks for your honest post! Unfortunately I'm probably not going to be able to give you a solid answer. See I'm kinda in the same boat you are. I have been struggling with homosexuality for years and when I first started to feel attracted to other men, It felt right, It felt good. Now in the same attraction sure there was sin, I lusted, I looked at inappropriate contentography, but is this really exclusive to homosexuality? I'm sure if I was a heterosexual I would struggle with similar things. The main issue that I try to rap my head around is What is the source of my sexual inclination toward other men. I guess that is where it gets tricky, because on one hand, sure its natural, but on the other, I am not perfect and I have my own faults and insecurities.
I am a Christian, and I want to honor God with all my heart, However I also am human, I struggle with giving God my whole heart. Homosexuality certainly could be lumped in with that, but to be honest there are far to many good things I fear I would miss if I simply tried to get rid of my feelings. Thats where I really have trouble seeing homosexuality as morally "wrong". I understand, Men can't procreate with each other, but that doesn't do anything for me, I want to be in an intimate relationship with another man, a relationship that is fully passionate and romantic one that is fully vulnerable. I don't know if this helps you or not, But just letting you know your not alone in your confusion.