I know I just posted a thread recently about my biases that I've formed since my diagnosis with autism years ago, but I figured with this one I would go a different direction.
When I was first diagnosed with autism I assumed it would be life ending in the sense of that I'd never have friends or that I would be treated like an outcast for the rest of my life by society, but as time has gone on I've grown to accept autism as a part of who I am and without it I can't imagine what my life would be like.
It obviously comes with struggles and issues, but it has came with blessings too, and one of the biggest is being more mindful and receptive of other people's feelings. I'm a lot more sensitive to things than I used to be and I guess you could say I have "more of a heart" for people in general than I used to. I still can't guarantee people that I will make perfect eye contact 100% of the time either, but I certainly try.
I've had a lot of people tell me that if I had not told them I had autism they never would known I had it either, which is kind of surprising to me since the no eye contact thing is one of the tell tell signs.
I still struggle heavily with detecting sarcasm, that is something I haven't mastered in the slightest yet, most people have to tell me they were being sarcastic for me to understand.
I've also had more of a desire to try and meet people as I've aged, which doesn't always work but whenever someone does talk to me I do my best to be genuine with them and if it turns into a friendship I take it very seriously, often to the point of forming a protective bond with the person, like worrying about their well-being and things like that, whenever I lose someone it hurts me deeply and takes me a long time, often years to recover.
God knows the reason why I was given this, there is some use for it, although I don't think I know what it is, but I consider it a blessing because of how it makes me deal with some situations and makes me look at a much broader perspective on things versus a narrow one.
I apologize if this sounds all over the place. My mind was ablaze with thoughts and I tried getting it out as clearly as I could.
When I was first diagnosed with autism I assumed it would be life ending in the sense of that I'd never have friends or that I would be treated like an outcast for the rest of my life by society, but as time has gone on I've grown to accept autism as a part of who I am and without it I can't imagine what my life would be like.
It obviously comes with struggles and issues, but it has came with blessings too, and one of the biggest is being more mindful and receptive of other people's feelings. I'm a lot more sensitive to things than I used to be and I guess you could say I have "more of a heart" for people in general than I used to. I still can't guarantee people that I will make perfect eye contact 100% of the time either, but I certainly try.
I've had a lot of people tell me that if I had not told them I had autism they never would known I had it either, which is kind of surprising to me since the no eye contact thing is one of the tell tell signs.
I still struggle heavily with detecting sarcasm, that is something I haven't mastered in the slightest yet, most people have to tell me they were being sarcastic for me to understand.
I've also had more of a desire to try and meet people as I've aged, which doesn't always work but whenever someone does talk to me I do my best to be genuine with them and if it turns into a friendship I take it very seriously, often to the point of forming a protective bond with the person, like worrying about their well-being and things like that, whenever I lose someone it hurts me deeply and takes me a long time, often years to recover.
God knows the reason why I was given this, there is some use for it, although I don't think I know what it is, but I consider it a blessing because of how it makes me deal with some situations and makes me look at a much broader perspective on things versus a narrow one.
I apologize if this sounds all over the place. My mind was ablaze with thoughts and I tried getting it out as clearly as I could.
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