That is not love. Remember St. Paul's words to the Corinthians:
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
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It is time for your to put away the childish thing that you are holding on to -- this 'relationship' with the Muslim boy -- that is harming you and most importantly being a stumbling block for you and inviting Satan into your life to keep you for coming back to God.
Leave the Muslim and all Muslim men alone forever. They cannot truly love you as the Bible tells us true love is, as their religion is their own stumbling block to their maturing out of the errors of Muhammad's false religion and coming to the one true God in Christ.
Come back to Christ and depend only on Him. Do not devote even the tiniest sliver of your heart and soul to anything or anyone else. Pray and supplicate God for your missing strength and direction. He has it and wants to give it to you, when you come to Him in repentance and acknowledgment that you have gone astray.
Lord have mercy.
