- Mar 21, 2012
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So, i'm going to miss mass today and i'm really angry at myself. I had every intention to go. Went to communion yesterday evening in preparation and set my alarms. However, I managed to get woken up by my alarms but in my "just woken up daze" I completely forgot I had mass (I've only recently started to make myself go regularly as I got more serious about my faith) and fell straight back to sleep involuntarily. This is a common thing for me where I struggle to get up when i'm exhausted (i've been quite sleep deprived this week more than usual). I ended up waking up 40 mins before mass started, but I walk to mass and the walk takes about 20 mins and I just wouldn't have been ready on time.
I am so angry at myself as this is the first one i've missed since making the decision to go every single week and I feel like a real disappointment to myself and God.
I'm not sure if i've committed a mortal sin. I had every intention to go and my waking up late was out of my control. I thought to myself that maybe I should have gone to bed earlier, but I wasn't tired at the time and if i'm not tired mentally then it takes me ages to sleep.
I'm not looking for somebody to sugar coat it (which i'm sure I won't get on here haha), but I want to know if i've committed a mortal sin so I at least know to arrange another confession with Father. My head is telling me theres nothing more I could have done apart from go to bed earlier, but my head is also telling me that I know full well if I had done i'd have probably just been lying there for hours struggling to sleep anyway. But I feel so rotten inside anyway. I don't know.
I am so angry at myself as this is the first one i've missed since making the decision to go every single week and I feel like a real disappointment to myself and God.
I'm not sure if i've committed a mortal sin. I had every intention to go and my waking up late was out of my control. I thought to myself that maybe I should have gone to bed earlier, but I wasn't tired at the time and if i'm not tired mentally then it takes me ages to sleep.
I'm not looking for somebody to sugar coat it (which i'm sure I won't get on here haha), but I want to know if i've committed a mortal sin so I at least know to arrange another confession with Father. My head is telling me theres nothing more I could have done apart from go to bed earlier, but my head is also telling me that I know full well if I had done i'd have probably just been lying there for hours struggling to sleep anyway. But I feel so rotten inside anyway. I don't know.