I really need some advice here. I want to share a few text messages between a mentor and her mentoree.
The "younger" gal is feeling very inadequate while the "older" gal feels the younger is just giving a lot of excuses and is capable of more. The younger is laid back, quiet and reserved while the older woman is very talkative, easily expresses her opinions and a go-geter.
I'm being vague here because I really want advice based on the text and what your impression is without being one sided. Thoughts and opinions appreciated.
Here are the texts:
Younger lady:
Hey lady!
Was thinking about something you said last night, once during the movie and once afterward. When you noticed I didn't cry during the movie you said, "You're just too young!"
I know you didn't mean anything bad by that, and it was all fun...I totally understand. But the movie did leave an impact on me and there's perhaps more depth to me than I often times show around you. I knew that movie would be hard to watch because my biggest fear (the fear that trumps all other fears) is that someone will snatch my child and do harm to her (just like the little girl in the movie) I was raped as a child and I wasn't much older than my little girl when it happened, so that has been a huge stronghold in my life....which is why I can count on one hand how many people I trust to watch her. Anyway, I don't tell you that to gain sympathy or anything... i just don't want you to assume because I am younger than you that I lack depth or experience, or even knowledge. One of these days I'll take my guards down around you, but often times you are very strong in your opinions and I am not strong enough in mine! You always have an answer for things and I don't. And I feel like a big dummy sometimes! Haha!
Anyway, just wanted to share that with you. The movie has been on my mind all day. .
Also, I haven't had a chance to tell you yet with all you've had going on with your car, and me feeling weary about it all, but we had a health scare with my daughter on her dr's apt earlier this week, and we have some decisions to make in the next few weeks. Our doctor out East was concerned about the possibility of Lymphoma (aka: cancer) during one of her last apts there, and this new doctor here (without knowing much of her medical history) voiced the same concern. So we have some decisions to make within the next few weeks about a "plan of action" to at least rule it out. I'm sure it's nothing, but my heart feels heavy because I don't want to put her through unnecessary tests and surgical biopsy's, but we need to do something! Anyway this is waaay too heavy for a text! Haha! We'll talk more later. . . Bye!
Older lady:
Sweet Girl - apologies for this very abbreviated, overly simplified answer, yet I didn't want you to think I missed your text,
... which have examples of why I made the "too young" comment.
It has nothing to do with what we've experienced - ALL to do with how we process it.
You're trying way too hard to compare yourself (& "compete") with me - not wise - not your purpose - not the way to measure your worth.
It's really lovely to have friends who have more life experience in "processing" (believe me, I know), if you can humbly accept your life experiences as not unique.
I have empathy for both of your consuming reveals (& I'll listen when you want to talk about each), but not fair for you to bring those up for the first time mixed in as "proof" of maturity.
XOXOX
Younger lady:
I'm not trying to compare or compete...I'm simply trying to find a damn spot! But you have all the answers, every time. Measuring my self worth--yeah I can TOTALLY agree with you there. I do that a lot and it's not good!
Also, I honestly don't find my past or experiences that "unique", nor was I trying to prove how "mature" I was. You missed my whole point, but then again I am not the best communicator.
You're not the first "mature" friend or mentor I've had....so I can appreciate those friendships, which is why I sought you out in the beginning....but if you can only hear yourself ("Believe me, I 'know'), you sound like you have all the answers and I have so much to learn from you (which in turn makes me feel like I have nothing to offer you!)
Anyway I gotta run toots! Lemme know if you need a ride tonight.
Older woman:
That was waaaay too quick of a reply, hence seems ...
you didn't spend any time reflecting on the content, mostly argued defensively,
gave more excuses,
and are now going on the offense, accusing me of a tone that wasn't there.
This was a mistake to handle through textng, and yes, I "knew" better.
End of texts
The "younger" gal is feeling very inadequate while the "older" gal feels the younger is just giving a lot of excuses and is capable of more. The younger is laid back, quiet and reserved while the older woman is very talkative, easily expresses her opinions and a go-geter.
I'm being vague here because I really want advice based on the text and what your impression is without being one sided. Thoughts and opinions appreciated.
Here are the texts:
Younger lady:
Hey lady!
Was thinking about something you said last night, once during the movie and once afterward. When you noticed I didn't cry during the movie you said, "You're just too young!"
I know you didn't mean anything bad by that, and it was all fun...I totally understand. But the movie did leave an impact on me and there's perhaps more depth to me than I often times show around you. I knew that movie would be hard to watch because my biggest fear (the fear that trumps all other fears) is that someone will snatch my child and do harm to her (just like the little girl in the movie) I was raped as a child and I wasn't much older than my little girl when it happened, so that has been a huge stronghold in my life....which is why I can count on one hand how many people I trust to watch her. Anyway, I don't tell you that to gain sympathy or anything... i just don't want you to assume because I am younger than you that I lack depth or experience, or even knowledge. One of these days I'll take my guards down around you, but often times you are very strong in your opinions and I am not strong enough in mine! You always have an answer for things and I don't. And I feel like a big dummy sometimes! Haha!
Anyway, just wanted to share that with you. The movie has been on my mind all day. .
Also, I haven't had a chance to tell you yet with all you've had going on with your car, and me feeling weary about it all, but we had a health scare with my daughter on her dr's apt earlier this week, and we have some decisions to make in the next few weeks. Our doctor out East was concerned about the possibility of Lymphoma (aka: cancer) during one of her last apts there, and this new doctor here (without knowing much of her medical history) voiced the same concern. So we have some decisions to make within the next few weeks about a "plan of action" to at least rule it out. I'm sure it's nothing, but my heart feels heavy because I don't want to put her through unnecessary tests and surgical biopsy's, but we need to do something! Anyway this is waaay too heavy for a text! Haha! We'll talk more later. . . Bye!
Older lady:
Sweet Girl - apologies for this very abbreviated, overly simplified answer, yet I didn't want you to think I missed your text,
... which have examples of why I made the "too young" comment.
It has nothing to do with what we've experienced - ALL to do with how we process it.
You're trying way too hard to compare yourself (& "compete") with me - not wise - not your purpose - not the way to measure your worth.
It's really lovely to have friends who have more life experience in "processing" (believe me, I know), if you can humbly accept your life experiences as not unique.
I have empathy for both of your consuming reveals (& I'll listen when you want to talk about each), but not fair for you to bring those up for the first time mixed in as "proof" of maturity.
XOXOX
Younger lady:
I'm not trying to compare or compete...I'm simply trying to find a damn spot! But you have all the answers, every time. Measuring my self worth--yeah I can TOTALLY agree with you there. I do that a lot and it's not good!
Also, I honestly don't find my past or experiences that "unique", nor was I trying to prove how "mature" I was. You missed my whole point, but then again I am not the best communicator.
You're not the first "mature" friend or mentor I've had....so I can appreciate those friendships, which is why I sought you out in the beginning....but if you can only hear yourself ("Believe me, I 'know'), you sound like you have all the answers and I have so much to learn from you (which in turn makes me feel like I have nothing to offer you!)
Anyway I gotta run toots! Lemme know if you need a ride tonight.
Older woman:
That was waaaay too quick of a reply, hence seems ...
you didn't spend any time reflecting on the content, mostly argued defensively,
gave more excuses,
and are now going on the offense, accusing me of a tone that wasn't there.
This was a mistake to handle through textng, and yes, I "knew" better.
End of texts