Hi this is my first forum post, I'm an eighteen year old high school student and I've been struggling with scrupulatory OCD (also referred as "religious" OCD, anxiety, and depression. Not only this, but my dad loves to watch televangelists, is a hoarder, and talks about the end of the world so freaking much it now just makes me mad or I get annoyed when he talks about it.
To out it shortly, I have a lot of mental issues because of these two major influences on my life (my anxiety disorder and my dad). I get the constant feeling that I'm unforgivable all the time, that my sins and mistakes separate me further and further from God each day, I get scared that I've committed the unpardonable sin, or that I'll be given over to my sin. I dont talk too much about my problems anymore and I get a stale feeling when I pray with my mom and dad. I keep having passing thoughts saying "I give up, I cant keep trying to be a Christian" because of all the confusion and all the doubt that floods my head. I take medication for my problems with anxiety while also counseling and when I do have "intrusive thoughts" i dont say as much about it anymore
To out it shortly, I have a lot of mental issues because of these two major influences on my life (my anxiety disorder and my dad). I get the constant feeling that I'm unforgivable all the time, that my sins and mistakes separate me further and further from God each day, I get scared that I've committed the unpardonable sin, or that I'll be given over to my sin. I dont talk too much about my problems anymore and I get a stale feeling when I pray with my mom and dad. I keep having passing thoughts saying "I give up, I cant keep trying to be a Christian" because of all the confusion and all the doubt that floods my head. I take medication for my problems with anxiety while also counseling and when I do have "intrusive thoughts" i dont say as much about it anymore