Memories of Abuse and Torture

[Bluerose31]

I am more and more aware that I have been tortured. It was ritual abuse but it felt more and was more like torture. I realized the people who hurt me wanted to drive me insane or make me kill myself. They threatened to torture me my whole life. I have prayed to God to ask why they did that to me but the sense I get is that they just did not care about me at all. I am glad to no longer have to see any of them. I realize that they were extremely cruel people. I also realize they do not know me at all. I prayed to God to help me continue to pray for them because in doing so I am healing them from their evil. It is hard to pray for them but it is becoming easier. A lot was taken from me,which hurts, but I know the people who hurt me were taken over by the devil and not themselves at all. They do not understand me, nor do they understand my Christianity. I feel they hurt me because I am Christian. They made me Christian by force but when I became a Christian they did not respect it. They treated me like I was not a true Christian and that I was evil. I am glad to have Christianity to help heal me. My Christianity is different from the one they gave me. It is gentle and does not abuse and God helps me cope. I love praying to God, knowing he is loving and good.