Well, tomorrow I'm seeing my doctor, and I'm going to try to ask her what she thinks is wrong with me. Recently it has been hinted that I have personality "problems" as well as the diagnois of depression, and anxiety, which I've had for years. But I just don't know.
I feel as I have no friends, and that I've ruined my life. Every time I try to talk to my boyfriend about how I feel he just brings the conversation round to himself. I feel as though he trys to compete with me and my "illness"
I also have big issues with men, people my own age, and keeping things up (such as friend-ships, going to church, voluntary work etc). Sometimes I feel as though I'm not in control of my actions, and go through stages where I am completly warped; doing sinful, extreme and stupid things.
I often have odd thoughts, wishing that I get a terminal illness, or that life isn't real; when I'm not looking at something it doesn't exist. I have up and downs, but the ups are never that good.
I'll shut up now.
I feel as I have no friends, and that I've ruined my life. Every time I try to talk to my boyfriend about how I feel he just brings the conversation round to himself. I feel as though he trys to compete with me and my "illness"
I also have big issues with men, people my own age, and keeping things up (such as friend-ships, going to church, voluntary work etc). Sometimes I feel as though I'm not in control of my actions, and go through stages where I am completly warped; doing sinful, extreme and stupid things.
I often have odd thoughts, wishing that I get a terminal illness, or that life isn't real; when I'm not looking at something it doesn't exist. I have up and downs, but the ups are never that good.
I'll shut up now.
I hope your doctor's appointment goes well. And don't worry about your odd thoughts or your issues with men. We all have our difficulties in life and our personal quirks. And to tell you the truth, even I have wished that I could have cancer, just so I could be on the Make-a-Wish list and have one of my dreams come true because of that organization. It's not as uncommon of a thought as you may think. 
