As I was laying on the couch today, paralyzed by the usual anxiety, I got thinking. Back when I was "normal" when I didn't even know what an anxiety disorder was, I never got nervous about driving, or going to the local department store. So where did this come from? I still don't know But what I do know is, since then, I have wasted countless hours on the internet trying to find the miracle cure for my problem. It's almost like I'm addicted to anxiety?! I wonder if I was to stop focusing on it, stop giving it all my time and energy, it will possibly go away. It will be hard and almost impossible at times (mainly when the strange physical symptoms come) but it's worth a try. This is no way to live. I know for a fact the average person doesn't wake up and first thing they do is observe how they're feeling, then go on the internet looking for every possible symptom of Multiple Sclerosis wondering if they have it! I don't want to feel like a crazy person anymore!!