Manic depressive..anyone ?

[t4inted-]

a part of my diagnosis is manic depressive disorder.. I believe it is
I think it’s where you are up and then you go down... happy and joyful and then depressed and sadden.. I don’t like this cause I would feel like a rollercoaster ride... though it does happen frequently I think I can not be bothered by it much though I catch myself given over to it... it seems to just happen and I would be normal throughout my day but catch myself caught in this...

anyone else ?

 

[Darkhorse]

They call it "bipolar disorder" now. If you haven't already, find a competent psychiatrist. They may prescribe lithium, and it would certainly be worth a try.

 

[t4inted-]

They call it "bipolar disorder" now. If you haven't already, find a competent psychiatrist. They may prescribe lithium, and it would certainly be worth a try.

so I am bipolar then?... I thought bipolar was something different.

 

[Darkhorse]

so I am bipolar then?... I thought bipolar was something different.

My understanding is: they are the same. Either way, you need competent medical care.

 

[t4inted-]

My understanding is: they are the same. Either way, you need competent medical care.

Oh.. I do have a psychiatrist I do have schizoaffective and one of the symptoms I was told was manic depressive or bipolar I suppose..
And I believe I have been prescribed this injection that I take once a month that’s suppose to balance out my mind..

 

[Darkhorse]

Hopefully it will work...

 

[t4inted-]

Hopefully it will work...

I did have this word from a fellow Christian sister at my church I think It was a word of knowledge because she told me what my anointing was and I do believe it but at times I don’t and she also told me she seen in the spirit my mind was unbalanced and that I needed to take my medication yet I did not tell her I was on medication and that I wasn’t taking it.. but I am now

 

[Jeshu]

Yes i got bi-polar, or rather Schizo-Affective disorder, a nasty illness that can play havoc on ones disposition. i take a range of medications from natural remedies, Vitamins B range especially niacin, C and D3, Zinc, and Magnesium, to prescription drugs that is because without them i go psychotic all the time so i have little choice.

 

[HisGraceAbounds]

Bipolar II here. My baseline is depressed, my depression cycles are extremely low, and I rarely get manic. My manic episodes are short-lived and have never resulted in anything harmful to me or others.

I was first formally diagnosed when I was 19 (that was 1996). I've never had any resolution of my disease. It's a daily thing for me, and some days are terribly difficult.

 

[Jeshu]

It's a daily thing for me, and some days are terribly difficult.

True for me as well. (Do you go manic while depressed? When my depression is really bad i loose my mind at times as well.)

 

[HisGraceAbounds]

True for me as well. (Do you go manic while depressed? When my depression is really bad i loose my mind at times as well.)

I go manic when my neurotransmitters get out of whack. Sometimes the meds I am on don't do an adequate job and I'll get flooded with too much serotonin which will lead to a brief state of mania and if it doesn't get controlled soon will escalate into full-blown hallucinations.

Getting the serotonin in 'check' takes me back to a depressed state. When the depression is really bad, I'll pretty much give up on life. Won't shower. Won't eat. Sleep sporadically. Sequester myself away from everyone and everything.

 

[Jeshu]

When the depression is really bad, I'll pretty much give up on life. Won't shower. Won't eat. Sleep sporadically. Sequester myself away from everyone and everything.

Yes i have been there plenty of times in my life, an absolutely awful place to be. Past that level i curl up in foetus position or cry for my mum, i might even suck my thumb. As if my mind can't handle the severity of the onslaught and i begin to act out strangely, i might go periodically psychotic as well. Like reaching snapping point.

 

[HisGraceAbounds]

Yes i have been there plenty of times in my life, an absolutely awful place to be. Past that level i curl up in foetus position or cry for my mum, i might even suck my thumb. As if my mind can't handle the severity of the onslaught and i begin to act out strangely, i might go periodically psychotic as well. Like reaching snapping point.

When in a deep, low point, tears are just below the surface for me. Full-throttle 'ugly crying'. Pathetic. I always feel so ashamed for it. Thankfully it happens in private so nobody sees.

 

[Jeshu]

When in a deep, low point, tears are just below the surface for me. Full-throttle 'ugly crying'. Pathetic. I always feel so ashamed for it. Thankfully it happens in private so nobody sees.

It is absolutely horrible what this illness renders us into at times but truly we are survivors and very strong, we overcome hardships others don't even have to dream about.

Peace.

 

[StarCrossed213]

Yeah, It's fairly rare that I get sad, although in my bipolar lows I do get seriously angry. Most of my disorder consists of energy levels rather than emotions, although it does chain react its way into my emotions, making me feel anger, guilt, shame, fatigue... whatever. Thankfully, I am on a relatively low dose of Lithium mixed happily together with a very low dose of Olanzapine. My strong will and self control take care of the rest.

As for all of us, we are in the battles of our lives. For many of us, the worst part is being quarantined by others in social and spiritual settings, which is the biggest shame in the universe, because I really believe that those of us with mental illness have nothing but the best to offer this broken world. We have the best strategies to fix our surroundings, if only the average could learn to believe. Such a shame that society has accepted otherwise.