- Jan 12, 2020
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Hey everyone,
So I've seen and read a lot of threads here focused on inappropriate contentography and masturbation, but I haven't seen one in my small amount of time here on lust.
Masturbation has definitely been a long-lasting struggle for me and inappropriate content has shown it's head throughout the years in varying degrees of severity. However, I feel like I have the knowledge and steps in place to combat those addictions through software and accountability.
But what I really struggle with is everyday lust. I spent a lot of time as a single guy, I was 21 when I first had a relationship, and then after that ended I spent around a year again as single. Over that time being single I felt like I was free to let my eyes wander, not online but in real life.
I felt like I could justify lusting after girls with something lame like "I'm just admiring God's creation" or "I'm single and I just find this person attractive". I don't think I ever realised that what I was doing was objectifying and lusting after girls, because I was never imagining them in some kind of sexual fantasy, I was just gawking with my eyeballs.
The result of that is that I'm basically addicted to looking at other women, or to the female physical form. It's so hard for me to not look at the body of someone when they walk past me, or people on Youtube or a TV show, I find myself looking at their body in an objectifying way. My brain is so hardwired to do it after years of doing so.
It's hard because I'm in a relationship now and for a long time the issue stopped because we were still in that honeymoon stage that we all go through when we start dating where you're infatuated with each other and life kinda stops for a bit (not as in sex outside of marriage, we're both celibate), but now that it's died down and it's more about real life and remaining dedicated and loyal to each other I'm once again finding it hard to keep my eyes true.
It's so hard because we live in a hyper-sexualized culture and semi-naked women are thrown in my face constantly. If we're walking through a mall there are bra models everywhere. If we're going out to eat at a cafe or restaurant the servers wear low cut clothing because they get higher tips that way, and that's not even taking into consideration how mainstream society dresses today.
It's constantly in my face and the only way I feel like I can avoid looking at women is to walk along looking at my feet. But that's no way to live life.
My girlfriend sees it and it upsets her, but she understands my struggle. The more I let my eyes wander and lust, the easier it is to fall into greater temptation and touch or watch inappropriate content. It makes me feel like trash and while I have been able to take big steps forward, I still just have this automatic response to want to objectify every girl that I think looks good as they walk past.
I hate it, it's not me and it's not what God wants for my life and for His daughters. It's not what those women or my girlfriend deserve.
I want to get to the end of my life and have God congratulate me for always respecting His daughters, not asking what the heck I was doing.
Sorry this is a long ranty post thing but it's such a struggle for me at the moment. Any thoughts, ideas or tips? Lol.
God bless,
Joe
So I've seen and read a lot of threads here focused on inappropriate contentography and masturbation, but I haven't seen one in my small amount of time here on lust.
Masturbation has definitely been a long-lasting struggle for me and inappropriate content has shown it's head throughout the years in varying degrees of severity. However, I feel like I have the knowledge and steps in place to combat those addictions through software and accountability.
But what I really struggle with is everyday lust. I spent a lot of time as a single guy, I was 21 when I first had a relationship, and then after that ended I spent around a year again as single. Over that time being single I felt like I was free to let my eyes wander, not online but in real life.
I felt like I could justify lusting after girls with something lame like "I'm just admiring God's creation" or "I'm single and I just find this person attractive". I don't think I ever realised that what I was doing was objectifying and lusting after girls, because I was never imagining them in some kind of sexual fantasy, I was just gawking with my eyeballs.
The result of that is that I'm basically addicted to looking at other women, or to the female physical form. It's so hard for me to not look at the body of someone when they walk past me, or people on Youtube or a TV show, I find myself looking at their body in an objectifying way. My brain is so hardwired to do it after years of doing so.
It's hard because I'm in a relationship now and for a long time the issue stopped because we were still in that honeymoon stage that we all go through when we start dating where you're infatuated with each other and life kinda stops for a bit (not as in sex outside of marriage, we're both celibate), but now that it's died down and it's more about real life and remaining dedicated and loyal to each other I'm once again finding it hard to keep my eyes true.
It's so hard because we live in a hyper-sexualized culture and semi-naked women are thrown in my face constantly. If we're walking through a mall there are bra models everywhere. If we're going out to eat at a cafe or restaurant the servers wear low cut clothing because they get higher tips that way, and that's not even taking into consideration how mainstream society dresses today.
It's constantly in my face and the only way I feel like I can avoid looking at women is to walk along looking at my feet. But that's no way to live life.
My girlfriend sees it and it upsets her, but she understands my struggle. The more I let my eyes wander and lust, the easier it is to fall into greater temptation and touch or watch inappropriate content. It makes me feel like trash and while I have been able to take big steps forward, I still just have this automatic response to want to objectify every girl that I think looks good as they walk past.
I hate it, it's not me and it's not what God wants for my life and for His daughters. It's not what those women or my girlfriend deserve.
I want to get to the end of my life and have God congratulate me for always respecting His daughters, not asking what the heck I was doing.
Sorry this is a long ranty post thing but it's such a struggle for me at the moment. Any thoughts, ideas or tips? Lol.
God bless,
Joe
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