Lost for 6 years. May have found answer.

[pantingdeer]

I have been on these forums for years desperate for an answer. A few years ago it seemed like most of my attraction to women just disappeared overnight. This messed with my head for a long time: I thought I may have been turning gay or something but most of all it has given me very low confidence as I couldn’t have feelings for women and so I knew I could never talk to one and have a relationship. It also made me develop other physical/sexual problems.
I thought after one week my libido would come back but time went on and it never returned.

In the past year, I started looking into some mental disorders because I felt I resonated somewhat with the testimony of David Wood. I felt like I didn’t care about anyone and nothing ever really made me happy and so I have thought I could be a sociopath. Some people thought I could be depressed but I’m not sad, I’m quite content a lot.

Last night I came across a video about Schizoid personality disorder and it aligned with how I feel a lot! Some signs are: no desire for sexual relationships, not caring about anything, no friends, never feeling very happy after doing fun things.
I don’t fit with all the traits but I fit with a lot of them. I also have a few of the traits of avoidant personality disorder and borderline personality disorder.

 

[pantingdeer]

Hello

 

[Petros2015]

Hello

Hello

Some people thought I could be depressed but I’m not sad, I’m quite content a lot.

Doesn't sound like a terribly bad place to be.
Possibly this fellow was similar

Isaac Newton - Wikipedia

 

[WIN_RUN]

I think it is fine not to have feelings for women and having no desire for a partner. It should help the focus being put on God. What I would worry about is the apathy. That apathy could also be a sort of depression seeping in or maybe a response from too much anxiety. I don't want to assume and I apologize if I have. This is basing off of my experience. I've been trying to stay away from labeling any of my own afflictions and trying to see if what I'm doing is matching up with how Christ wants us to live. I believe God can heal all. I'll pray that the LORD delivers you from these afflictions.


Matthew 19:12
12 For there are [a]eunuchs who were born thus from their mother’s womb, and there are eunuchs who were made eunuchs by men, and there are eunuchs who have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven’s sake. He who is able to accept it, let him accept it.”

Psalm 34:19
19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all.