i am way too afraid to get up and start a family. a part of me wants to but a part of me don't want to. there is a part of me that says why on earth would i want to bring another child here to suffer in this evil rotten world. I don't know what to think any more. everything just seems rotten to me any more in life. There is just too much i want to change about my life from now on it is just too overwhelming i cant find my true self. i just feel lost in life. it is like you hit a fork in the road and you stand there cant move asking yourself staring at the fork in the road asking do i go right or left? while every body else in life just pass you by. This whole world will just get up and pass me by because i cant make a choice in life. i just lost all my self confidence in life. praying day in and out for an answer. lost all my self confidence in life cant make any decisions. been like this for years now i just cant any decisions in confidence. I just don't know if it is the depression or what. everything just seems and feels rotten to me. I just don't know how to say it other then that. Don't get me wrong i am great-full for what i do have. I just wish the Lord would just tell me what to do. like he did when he guide me to move to this house. all i ask is please guide me in the right direction i am stuck not knowing what direction in life. God you just need to push me again. push me in the right direction. I am just lost at what and where to go in life. Lord please push me so i can be happy in life again.
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