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I read the Bible in a rigorous manner two times cover to cover last year for the explicit purpose of finding scientific contradictions in it. By that, I mean statements in the Bible that were false that could somehow persuade me into believing just how ridiculous it was to believe in God. My life has always been filled with God, and I have always done my best to do God's will. I even participated in many debates hosted by local organizations in my area regarding same-sex marriage and abortion and I have always been in God's corner, always. Until recently when I started to wonder whether or not He truly existed. Why does my one and only brother may have to undergo a heart transplantation surgery at the age of 17? Why does God allow this to happen? Why isn't He answering at least one of my prayers and helping my brother as he suffers from this horrible medical condition? Why does He allow many bad things to happen to selfless and generous people? Why does He allow other people to starve to death in other parts of the world? What kind of God is this? Real or not, He simply doesn't seem the all-loving and all-knowing mighty being I'd choose to commit my life to, and this is something many atheists say. If He takes away my brother, then I'm giving away my bible and CS Lewis books. No more prayer in my home. I will not consider myself a Christian anymore and my faith in Him will be over. My mom wants to convince herself that God loves us and that He's on our side, but after all the torment we've been through for the past couple of years, is that really an all-loving and just being on our side? To watch us get tormented and anguished on a daily basis? I say bs.
Lastly I'd like to thank everyone once again for at least helping me cling to my faith, I very much appreciate this wonderful community you guys have here, thank you very much.
Dear Mia,
How much clearer things would have been if you had mentioned your brother in the original post. I feel that the real basis of your turning away from God isn't really science but your brother's heart condition. His life might just be saved by science!
While I have never been in a similar situation I can fully understand your rage, and theological discussions not only won't change that but will probably make you angrier.
Yet at the end of the above post you thank everyone for helping you cling to your faith. To me that shows that you have the heart of a true Christian; I probably wouldn't be able to do the same if I was in your shoes. You are a brave, compassionate woman! I truly believe that God made you that way and that you will continue to be that person for the rest of your life. You could be otherwise, but you're not -- and I believe that God is the reason.
In the parable of the prodigal son, the younger son demanded his share of his father's estate, then left his father. The father gave him his inheritance and let him go. As you know, he later returned and the father not only welcomed him but threw a party in his honor.
Based on what I have read you truly have the Spirit of Christ and God won't take that from you -- ever -- no matter where you go or what you do. I (and I'm sure others on this forum) will pray for you during this time of struggle.
God said that he will never leave you nor forsake you, and he means it.
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