Doesn't change the fact that it's still just a book. A book which speaks against gay people and even condone slavery. What about children who are born with bone cancer? Children who are born with Aids/HIV? Still, it's nonsensical. If God is there, and He's sitting somewhere watching me struggle with my own thoughts, then He's definitely losing me.
First, I do not understand what you mean by 'speaks against gay people'.
If you mean that God is specific that He created man first and then a woman as a companion for the man. That man and a woman together can procreate, where as a man with a man cannot. Having hetrosexual sex outside of marriage is a sin. Lusting after someone is also a sin, especially for married men. Homosexual sex between the same sex is also a sin.
I don't feel that God purposely has pulled out homosexuals as being in sin. There are a lot of ways to be in sin because of our sexual desires.
Second point, I'm going to imagine that you are talking about slavery in the Old Testament. From my understanding slavery back then was like a social welfare system. Those who had no land to farm and no way to support themselves would give themselves as workers over to someone and work for them. It was also common in the OT days that a man may have to work for his father-in-law for some time as a dowry or as a stipulation of marrying someone's daughter.
As far as the other things go like diseases. I truthfully think many things we have brought upon ourselves. We are the ones poking around with all kind of biochemical agents for war and experimenting with all kinds of things, even cloning.
As far as God helping you, God doesn't always answer our prayers on our timing, but God has His own timeline. There are many different ways that God can answer prayer. Sometimes it's through another person, I've had Aha moments, sometimes it's through His Word or a Christian book or a friend and many times he guides us in the right direction.
There are a few verses that may help you to cling to your faith. I like to know what the promises of God are and these are some of the most important.
1 John 1:9
"If we confess our sins, He i
s faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Romans 8:39
"For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing,
will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
John 10:28-30
"and I give eternal life to them, and
they will never perish; and no one will snatch them out of My hand.
http://biblehub.com/john/10-29.htm"My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and
no one is able to snatch them out of the Father's hand. "I and the Father are one.""
John 14:1-4
Dont be troubled. Believe in God, and believe in me. 2 My Fathers house has many rooms. If that were not true, would I have told you that
Im going to prepare a place for you? 3 If I go to prepare a place for you,
I will come again. Then I will bring you into my presence so that you will be where I am. 4 You know the way to the place where I am going.