- Feb 13, 2018
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I am ambivalent about sharing this. On the one hand I am struggling to cope with my feelings about it. It happened very recently and serendipitously, so I thought everything was going to be fine, but with each new test, the situation seems to be worse. We still don't know much about the exact staging and treatment plan - we will find out Monday or Tuesday.
On the other hand, I am even having trouble praying. I don't know how. I don't know about asking for prayer either. I've always had difficulty asking that. In these situations (and whenever it was about me) I've had a strong feeling that "Your will be done" is all that is appropriate. But, yeah, now I have an urge to ask. But I can't. I don't know.
The distance, the impossibility of just dropping everything and flying there tomorrow, just compounds it all.
It's not right, it'a all wrong, it's not what it was supposed to be, they were supposed to come over here next week to see their granddaughter for the first time.
Lord have mercy.
On the other hand, I am even having trouble praying. I don't know how. I don't know about asking for prayer either. I've always had difficulty asking that. In these situations (and whenever it was about me) I've had a strong feeling that "Your will be done" is all that is appropriate. But, yeah, now I have an urge to ask. But I can't. I don't know.
The distance, the impossibility of just dropping everything and flying there tomorrow, just compounds it all.
It's not right, it'a all wrong, it's not what it was supposed to be, they were supposed to come over here next week to see their granddaughter for the first time.
Lord have mercy.