something personal. personal God, that I have. still confused about what is true in my life. i know truth and stand for it. but looking for those who are too and personal not manipulative and unresponsible and say they are christians. looking for personal relationships. and a personal significant other and mental clarity. i wanna know the truth. the core. i want what God wants for my life. i want personal. not bull hockey. sorry i am just hurting. i am always loveing people just so they don't love me back and now i am at a loss. i want to be loved in return. so i need help.