- Dec 7, 2017
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OK~ here we go again. I sitting in my room despiseing God for His inaction while sitting on His throne and my daughter on her bedroom floor banging her fist into her forehead because of a blow up over her cat digging her house plants a regular occurrence I said the obvious thing to do is keep the door shut. Shes yelling how overwhelmed everyday life is and suicide would take care of that problem and Im so angry at Gld I started in sorrow for her His blatant apparent inaction when He could heal her with a word and because of my anger the evil ones sitting laughing at all five of us. God Jesus Spirit my daughter and me. Yeah laugh it up funny boy your so stupid you dont resliize youve allready been defeated. Im so @$#€*¥+ angry at the Lord right now. Some times I feel like a mouse in a box and people with sticks are standing around saying “lets see what he does when I stick it in his ear. How much before he cries uncle. For mercy. OK now in his eye. Lets try his eye”. I just scream at Him WHY what the &$*# are you trying to prove You allready won the whole war. And the evil ones are laughing at me for loseing myself to the situation but He just allows it to continue.
Enough Said. Time to move forward and take advice from an earlier poster to one of my threads and ask my daughter if she would like to go with me to town to accomplish some of the things overwhelming her on her to do list. Now that its quiet in her room.
Her cat does spitefull things to manipulate her. They have “personalities”. He actually jumped up on the buffet today w/ his bowl in his mouth then dropped it. Its metal. Its loud. Then jumped up on arm of couch patted her on her face and ran away. Then she discovered he had dug up her plants. That set into motion her panic outburst. Then I mentioned shuttig bedroom door which put focus on me. All downhill from there. I end up angry and curseing swearing in my mind at Gods inaction begging for mercy knowing evil ones are haveing a field day of entertainment at our expense.
Im also her older brothers payee and he has simalar issues. Get up dust off move on get up dust off move on. Give me kindness keep me from takeing it personally empathy not pity forgiveness without defences encourage without criticism.
Its only part of one day not the whole.
Sorry this thread is just a vent. But advice welcome.
Enough Said. Time to move forward and take advice from an earlier poster to one of my threads and ask my daughter if she would like to go with me to town to accomplish some of the things overwhelming her on her to do list. Now that its quiet in her room.
Her cat does spitefull things to manipulate her. They have “personalities”. He actually jumped up on the buffet today w/ his bowl in his mouth then dropped it. Its metal. Its loud. Then jumped up on arm of couch patted her on her face and ran away. Then she discovered he had dug up her plants. That set into motion her panic outburst. Then I mentioned shuttig bedroom door which put focus on me. All downhill from there. I end up angry and curseing swearing in my mind at Gods inaction begging for mercy knowing evil ones are haveing a field day of entertainment at our expense.
Im also her older brothers payee and he has simalar issues. Get up dust off move on get up dust off move on. Give me kindness keep me from takeing it personally empathy not pity forgiveness without defences encourage without criticism.
Its only part of one day not the whole.
Sorry this thread is just a vent. But advice welcome.