First off I just wanted to tell you all that God loves you so much. You guys have gone through so much, and through it all God is always there, never leaving you nor forsaking you.
I was just wondering what your guys' take on this is. On Labor day something happened in my life that pretty much turned it all around. It wasn't a full on r***, he never got me away from the people for anything more to happen. But he wouldn't stop mentioning it, and he wouldn't stop grabbing me and holding me and forcing me to hold him..it was just horrible...I just wanted to scream, but I didn't want to cause a scene or anything, and my mind was pretty much blocked...all I could think of was I want to get out of here and go home. I had to put up with this for 3 hours. Once I finally got to leave, I cried all the way while I was driving home. The next 4 days I couldn't even control my emotions, whenever no one was around, I cried, when people were around, I tried to stay as far away as possible and did not want anyone of them near me or to even hug me. On that Friday, I got over it, atleast I think I did. Some have told me that I may have just stuffed it inside, hiding my actual emotions from myself, I haven't told anyone that I know personally. But can't I have just gotten over it, couldn't God just have taken away the pain I felt inside.
I don't feel like it really is that important for me to tell anyone, cause it wasn't like he got as far as he wanted....for me he still went to far...but I mean it still wasn't like he hurt me physically or anything. I mean, I never met this guy in my life, yet he was touching me and doing things that he just shouldn't have, and he just met me. Yea, I think he went to far, he doesn't, he doesn't think he went far enough, but it really isn't that bad, is it? Did I make a big deal about something that really wasn't that big of a deal...I let it control me the next four days, I could not erase it from my mind. Now it's just wondering what life holds in store for me in the near future...I know he will come back to where I work...I don't know when, but I know he knows when I work....so that kinda still scares me...
I just don't know anymore
I was just wondering what your guys' take on this is. On Labor day something happened in my life that pretty much turned it all around. It wasn't a full on r***, he never got me away from the people for anything more to happen. But he wouldn't stop mentioning it, and he wouldn't stop grabbing me and holding me and forcing me to hold him..it was just horrible...I just wanted to scream, but I didn't want to cause a scene or anything, and my mind was pretty much blocked...all I could think of was I want to get out of here and go home. I had to put up with this for 3 hours. Once I finally got to leave, I cried all the way while I was driving home. The next 4 days I couldn't even control my emotions, whenever no one was around, I cried, when people were around, I tried to stay as far away as possible and did not want anyone of them near me or to even hug me. On that Friday, I got over it, atleast I think I did. Some have told me that I may have just stuffed it inside, hiding my actual emotions from myself, I haven't told anyone that I know personally. But can't I have just gotten over it, couldn't God just have taken away the pain I felt inside.
I don't feel like it really is that important for me to tell anyone, cause it wasn't like he got as far as he wanted....for me he still went to far...but I mean it still wasn't like he hurt me physically or anything. I mean, I never met this guy in my life, yet he was touching me and doing things that he just shouldn't have, and he just met me. Yea, I think he went to far, he doesn't, he doesn't think he went far enough, but it really isn't that bad, is it? Did I make a big deal about something that really wasn't that big of a deal...I let it control me the next four days, I could not erase it from my mind. Now it's just wondering what life holds in store for me in the near future...I know he will come back to where I work...I don't know when, but I know he knows when I work....so that kinda still scares me...
I just don't know anymore