It sounds to me like you are pondering matters like Dietrich Bonhoeffer did that have been interpreted as primarily following Jesus by deed above worship. Bonhoeffer considered this practice as a “religionless Christianity”. Important matters to consider are though that Pastor Bonhoeffer was a political prisoner of the Nazis at this time. He was blessed, to a small degree, to have initially not undergone torture but he still only saw 30 minutes of daylight each day. Prisoners at Tegel jail in Berlin remained upstairs when allied air raids occurred. Later Bonhoeffer was directly linked to the plot against Hitler and transferred to a camp & tortured. Pastor Bonhoeffer was tragically executed a month before the Nazi surrender in 1945.
There are different opinions on whether Bonhoeffer remained an orthodox Christian or not. I believe he did and was a martyr ( he is a martyr in some sense regardless).
Here is an ethical article on Bonhoeffer that supports the post Christian view of Bonhoeffer’s view of Christ.
Dietrich Bonhoeffer began to struggle with what remains when the typical traits of a religion—clergy, rites, beliefs, and morality—are eliminated.
followingjesus.org
There is also an Orthodox Christian nun, Mother Maria ( Skobtsova), also executed by the Nazis, who struggled with how to properly follow Jesus Christ in matters of faith & ethics. She wrote an essay on this at the same time Bonhoeffer wrote: The Cost of Discipleship. Her essay ( about 25pp.) was never intended to be published but was for her fellow coworkers but was found years later in a filing cabinet. Despite the variance of Lutheran & Orthodox faiths, I believe Pastor Bonhoeffer and Mother Maria were kindred spirits who probably never met. Mother Maria never wavered from Orthodoxy but had many of the challenges of how to follow Jesus Christ in a rapidly changing world.
by Mother Maria Skobtsova
incommunion.org
I believe there is wisdom that can be found from people like these who may help you in forming your views.