- Dec 4, 2019
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Why do I not trust Jesus like I should everyone around tells me I am truly fine with Jesus despite my psychosis and scitzphrenia.
Everyone tells me Jesus wont erase my name from the Lambs Book of Life for psychosis but it feels so real to me.
I truly love Jesus and I would not want to hurt him and I am scared I offended him with what I said to him about 666 and my fear saying crazy stuff to Jesus and scared it got placed on me for my psychosis that I blasphemed Jesus for my mentally ill rant after seeing the Yellow light/cross.
I just cant find anything in scripture why I cant be raptured there is nothing about a yellow light being a mark and there is nothing about a blue sphere.
I confused the Holy Spirit and Satan but it wasnt intentional blasphemy of the Holy Spirit on October 4 it was psychosis.
My family, friends, church say I have nothing to fear that Jesus doesn't hold illness against people and that I didnt get the mark or become Satans for confusing him with Jesus.
I just need to trust Jesus and praise him and listen to the Bible and praise him knowing Satan cant take over a believers brain and heart from a hallucination hopefully no nightmare tonight medicine got upped.
Everyone tells me Jesus wont erase my name from the Lambs Book of Life for psychosis but it feels so real to me.
I truly love Jesus and I would not want to hurt him and I am scared I offended him with what I said to him about 666 and my fear saying crazy stuff to Jesus and scared it got placed on me for my psychosis that I blasphemed Jesus for my mentally ill rant after seeing the Yellow light/cross.
I just cant find anything in scripture why I cant be raptured there is nothing about a yellow light being a mark and there is nothing about a blue sphere.
I confused the Holy Spirit and Satan but it wasnt intentional blasphemy of the Holy Spirit on October 4 it was psychosis.
My family, friends, church say I have nothing to fear that Jesus doesn't hold illness against people and that I didnt get the mark or become Satans for confusing him with Jesus.
I just need to trust Jesus and praise him and listen to the Bible and praise him knowing Satan cant take over a believers brain and heart from a hallucination hopefully no nightmare tonight medicine got upped.